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Last year, I had two very close friends. One from aus and one same as where I'm from. We spent a ton of time together, one in an online game and the other irl and in the same game. Except one day, friend A ( aus one) had issues and stopped playing and talkingn tobme. Friend B at a certain point stopped talking to me after telling me, they were suffering through depression. I tried to talk to them, but at the end of it... I stopped trying.
Fast forward, they now have their own group of friends. Leaving me alone. I do have a loving boyfriend. And good siblings.... But I just.. Really miss them. And It just makes me feel so s**t that they could easily move on. You know? There are nights I just plot my own death via gas. I live alone so it's a bit easy. I've gotten a knife and have just stared at it. I feel like... That'd be easier than just feeling so crap. I've been trying to be friendlier? But that... Doesn't really seem to work.. I don't know anymore... Honestly.. I just hurt.
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