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Hi, I am Bella, I Battled with depression for 4 years and won, but then later on I have trouble sleeping in the right routine, like I have no purpose in life. I love sleeping a lot and I didnt care about life, but now I found a purpose and finding it hard to sleep right, So I normally sleep a bit then I am awake lying for hours, talking to myself or whatever, normally I have not slept for 3 days and I have gone crazy. I am sooo exhausted and finding it hard to turn off my brain and sleep. I cant even eat! my tummy grumbles but I when I try to stuff the food in my mouth when I am hungry I feel sick... I am 21 years old unemployed, deaf with heart pulmonary valve replacement, I have psychologist to talk about things that affects my life. it helps a bit, still doing it as it helping. I use to have chest pains a lot due to be being under a lot of stresses. and no I am not pregnant, havent slept with anyone for a year. to be honest I have some stresses added, relates to my mother and my future plan, i believed I may be having hyperinsomnia. I cant sleep comfortablly. I have tried yoga, 1 hour and half long walk, I refused to take pills, tried milk, tea anything that can help didn't work. I start to worry about my family and myself. I am a bit of a lonewolf, I do have friends but I rarly spend times with them. I want to sleep peacefully everyday and stop worrying about things going wrong. problem is when I sensed something is not right or wrong it turns out I was right bad things happening and making things worst. the trigger for depression was losing and giving up my horse I was forced to sell to study horses 'my passion' I had couple of meltdowns and attempted suicides for these four years along with nightmares in a dream. now I am not suicidal just as you know.
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