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Blipping again. Have taken end of term off, it was only another couple of days anyway. Told work I had a vomiting bug....actually my stomach does feel really messed up, so that's no lie.
Saturday marked 16 weeks on Cit 10mg. I've come a long way since June, when I had the depressive/anxious relapse. However, I do still get the odd few days here and there where I feel s****y. My gosh, it does feel like it's been harder to stabilise this time around on the cit. Maybe I just won't come off it again.
I go thru periods of feeling good, and actually forgetting I'm recovering from anything. I do seem a bit more sensitive to stress, though. Like, I get more wound up by things rather than just letting them go. And my sleep is really strange. Have periods where I'm getting a good solid 7 or 7.5 hours a night. And then periods like the last few days when my sleep is all over the place, waking and not being able to get back to sleep for an hour. And my mood is a bit gloomy. My brain sometimes feels weird, eg at work yesterday, felt really detached from my surroundings all day.
Not willing to updose, or change meds. Just looking for a bit of encouragement, please. It can feel like such a struggle, dealing with all of this. I'm sure I will even out again, but it's kind of crappy when you feel like you're reversing....
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