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Hi this is my first post and I'm just looking for a bit of advice and reassurance. Just so you know I'm a 20 year old male. If I'm being honest I've always been overly conscious about my health but never really worried apart from before opticians appointments ect (worrying he'd diagnose me with eye cancer or something) or thinking I might have bone cancer because my arm aches but it never really effected my everyday life. I first started to experience panic about 4 months ago when I found a small lump on my ankle and googled my symptoms which lead me to believe I had connective tissue cancer. This was the first time in my life I went into a full blown panic, I didn't feel like eating and had to force myself to eat. I felt dizzy and nauseous and started to convince myself that I had cancer spreading throughout my body and spreading to my brain. Anyway after a few days of worrying it subsided and I was able to get on with my life again until about 2 months ago when I was on holiday in the supermarket and I totally forgot the name of a bottle of wine I intended to buy someone as a gift, this lead me onto thinking I had a brain tumor that was effecting my memory and ever since that day I have been unable to relax and not think about my health. I constantly feel like I can't concentrate, like my brain is running at 2mph, people have to say things to me multiple times before I'm able to understand what they mean. My memory has become terrible and I can't remember what I did 5 minutes ago, never mind yesterday and I have to think really really hard to remember anything, even stuff from years ago or stuff that I really should know like passwords although being honest I do always remember it in the end. I feel really fatigued like I can't be bothered doing anything besides lying in bed and I have no interest in doing anything anyway, even stuff I used to love. I feel like I just have a weight pulling down on my head and mind. I struggle to read sentences and sometimes have to read them 3 times before I understand what they mean.I find the gym so difficult to point where spin class seems impossible and I have to really push myself through it. I just feel like a floating head disjointedly going through life. Like its pointless and not one bit enjoyable. I've been to the doctors twice. The first doctor didn't even examine me and said he'd refer me for cbt, The second doctor has sent off routine blood tests. I'm wondering now if any of these symptoms could be caused by an underactive thyroid and if these blood tests would pick this up and also if it could really all just be anxiety. I fear I have dementia or a brain tumor or ms or something that is causing all of this. I know if I can convince myself that anxiety really can cause all of this and it is just my constant thinking that's causing these symptoms then I can stop thinking about it and I can start to just enjoy my life again.
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