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Hello all. I'm a 17 years old student this year. I haven never used a forum before and today, I'm hoping that someone can help me with my problems.
When I was in elementary school, I was shunned and bullied by my class. My teacher also joined in the bullying. An almost molestation happened to me when I was in 2nd grade and these caused me to become very scared of human relations, people in general and since then, till now, I'm unable to trust people easily. I hate making friends and I'm paranoid towards my friends.
In the past few years, I have been often down. I cry almost everyday, most of the time, for no reason at all. I hate life and everyone around me. I feel like I have no one to rely on at all and I think of suicide sometimes. To me, my friends are people whom I can discard any time. I tried to trust them, but the slightest hint of rejection just cause me to die inside.
I feel like I'm alone in this world and no one actually cares about me. Nobody has ever seen through my facade. I don't even care much about myself. I just want to die. I hate this feeling and I really want to get rid of it. I want to feel like there's someone out there who cares about me. Is there any way to do so? And, do I have depression?
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