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I'm a 17 year old boy who is out looking for jobs. I don't real weigh that much but I am a tall and fairly skinny. I'm not really happy ad out it to be honest.
I don't know if I'm disconnected or what. When I was younger I was a little shy but talkative. I was always downstairs with the family and seen by them, quite a bit.
I'm really short mooded and most of the time I don't really care much about anything. I don't often smile. If I bought something that I knew I wanted then for some reason I won't smile. I don't really know why.
But Since puberty I started going in my room to try and feel comfortable which worked in a way but I started staying more and more in my room. In my teens it was like a routine. I went downstairs for food and back up in my room.
I'm really opinionated and my dad says I'm pretty negative which I couldn't care less about. I feel that I shouldn't care what other people think but again for some unknown reason I do. I get really annoyed and agitated quite easily, especially with my dad but I don't know why.
When I left school I chose to go to college and do a subject. In the mornings to college I would begin gagging / straying to throw up (I've never liked being sick) it kept on happening until my attendance begun to really decrease so they done something which might help me. ( i thought it would too but no such luck. They temporary suspended my course. )
I started applying to part time jobs but because I was always thinking in my mind ( I was always getting more and more anxious) when I get novice or anxious I will end up being sick. Not just once or twice but constant until I would walk the opposite direction. This has been going on for a year.
I really don't know if this is normal or whether it's healthy or not but I don't know what to do...
Can anyone offer some advice on what I should do.
-What it feels like when I start anxious :
First off my heart begins to been very quickly and then I will start gagging/being sick.
I've tried deep breaths but it doesn't work at all. It makes it worse. I don't know why I bother.
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