Cancelled meeting

I find that sometimes when I take the pressure off e.g. tell myself...no, I don't have to see anyone today, I usually feel better. Basically I'm saying, try not to put too much pressure on yourself and don't get frustrated with yourself if you can't face seeing anyone, you are fighting this anxiety every day! Sometimes, it just gets too much and that's ok. xx

You have "social anxiety" right now.  I got this from a website on social anxiety: (moodjuice) is the website:

When we are socially anxious, we tend to avoid social situations (e.g. parties; speaking in front of small groups, asking for a refund etc). However if we keep avoiding the situations we fear, we never get the chance to prove to ourselves that we can cope in them and our confidence remains low. Similarly, whenever socially anxious people do enter the situations they fear, they tend to use 'safety behaviours' (e.g. sticking tightly besides a good friend at a party; staying silent when in a small group to avoid looking foolish etc). Although these behaviours seem to help in the short term, upon closer inspection they are actually unhelpful. This is because they stop people from learning that they could have coped fine without relying on such precautions. Instead, someone may believe: "I only coped during that party because I had my best friend besides me" so their confidence remains low. Therefore, like avoidance, safety behaviours stop us from learning that we can cope in such situations and our anxiety towards them continues.

The best way to reduce our anxiety towards social situations is to gradually confront them, without relying on safety behaviours. Of course, confronting social situations can be daunting, especially given that our anxiety levels often rise when we do so. However research shows that if we can stay in a situation that we feel anxious in for long enough (without using our safety behaviours), gradually our anxiety will reduce. It is almost as though our body and mind become 'used to' the situation and our anxiety begins to fall. This may take around 30 minutes or more but often happens more quickly. More importantly, if we subsequently confront a similar situation again, the amount of anxiety we experience is likely to be less and less on each occasion. Not only this, but it is likely to pass more quickly each time too, until the point that the situation causes us little or no anxiety.

I am going through the exact same thing. I really do feel your struggle and every day is a challenge to do your daily tasks. Going to work, school, shopping, anything that is confrontational..etc. Do you have a therapist/psychiatrist? If you don't I highly suggest one, it helped me overcome the fear of "what is next". I'm still struggling with it but it's gotten much better. Talk to a doctor about it and see if there's a medication that would help or something you could do to relieve the anxiety and the what if fear. Hope all goes well! Message me if you need more advice