Cant Believe It

Well done to you Chalkie.

I also survived a weekend of being around people. Shopping (admittedly with a friend) but chatted with cashier like my old self, got my haircut, chatted to my mate's neighbour. Positive boost for us both i think.

Have had 4 reasonable days in a row now but back to work tomorrow so things could slide. Have to wait and see.

Glad you enjoyed your day out and hope you are still ok.

Best wishes

PS - Glad you started another post. Some of them are getting rather long now!!

Well done both of you. It truely does get easier. It WILL seem the norm again to be with groups of people and suddenly you'll realise you're being yourself without even trying, if that makes sense, thats how i found it anyway.

Meganpooch, good luck at work tom. I'll check the site tomorrow to see how it went.

Sam x

Thanks for the reply from you both. Meganpooch i wish you all the best for tomorrow. Please let us know how you went on.

Well, after gearing myself up for work today and after quite a rough night, i pull back the curtains to find so much snow that i can't see where the pavement ends and the road starts. Not being the owner of a 4x4 and living in a very hilly area.....work will have to wait for another day. Apparently the main roads aren't much better.

What a pain. Have to go through all this again tomorrow. Thanks nature!! Oh and it's still snowing large fluffy snowflakes. :?

seee..........!

We'll after what i should say was a good weekend i,m really fed up today though i had turned the corner, how wrong can one be. Could'nt get out of bed this morning (really bad under the pillow stuff thinking how i could get out this crap). Eventually got up and went out with the children (off school because of the snow). I cant get the return to work out of my mind, When will i be okay to go back etc. The way i feel on a morning there is no way i can get up to go to work. I really want to but i can't see me goingback to the job i was doing.

pls help

Ok young man. Thought it might not last but didn't want to spoil your weekend. I see patience isn't your strong point. Nor was mine at your stage (even now at 6 weeks). But you do need plenty of it. Try to put work to the back of your mind (if there is no pressure for you to go back). You WILL know when you're ready. Mornings are always the worst time for me too but you need to believe you will get better.

You are at the nasty stage where the highs and lows are quite extreme but give it a couple more weeks (a couple, i here you cry!) and the extremes will be less pronounced.

I know how frustrating it is - i've been there.

I know it's been said many times before but things will improve. You just need to grimace and bear it.

Remember the positives and good days.

Good luck for tomorrow.

Best Wishes

Meganpooch (must remember to log in in future)

Thanks for your support Meganpooch it really does help when there is someone who understands. I think my missis is on the point of getting angry with me. Can blame her really she does not have a clue how i feel.

You say give it another couple of weeks i hope there is light at the end of the tunnel because i can't stand this much longer.

Anyway thanks once again for your support and calling me young man will get you everywhere.

Cheers

Chalkie

Know what you mean about the weekend.

My stepdaughter and her kevin perry teenager friend came over, was hard work. Had to force myself to be nice, happy, friendly accomodating etc... Prob did me some good to fill my time with running them to town, bowling, brekkie, lunch and dinner forced down there throats as at 12yrs old thanks to mags etc... they know calorie content of everything???!!!

I have not worked properly for a year, used to be self-employed, moved house thought I would find the ideal new job in my area, how wrong was I! Basically thats alot of what my depression is about I wish I had a job, a meaning to get up each day. I never thought in my life I would ever have difficulty finding work. For the 1st time in my life I am rarely getting interviews, and have lost count of how many positions I have applied for, it's so de-motivating. :cry:

Thought that would get your attention! I guessed you were younger than me (i'm 47, i think, i lose track). Glad to see you still have your sense of humour. Keep sending posts. Never get tired of them.

On the missis front - why don't you show her this site. It might help her understand although only us guys (and gals) really know what it's like.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a good day.

Best wishes :x

Any improvement today Chalkie?

I'm annoyed and frustrated (yep me too). Cannot go back to work today so will have to endure a 3rd day of apprehension. A slight backward step today methinks and the dreaded shakes have returned.

But i had been expecting it. Still, clearing my 60ft drive of the white stuff should help to keep my mind occupied (when i can be bothered to do it!) :?

Morning all,

How is everyone feeling - anything new/different happen to anyone that would be good to share?

MPP,

I'll bet the apprehension of going back to work is horrible but try and use the time to relax and put work as far to the back of your mind as you can. I would take this snowfall as a blessing, as you can take that little bit longer to get to grips with the idea that you are going back to work. Dont try and rush things, it will only frustrate you more buddy.

Chalkie,

I know exactly what you mean about the missus getting angry - mine didnt have a clue how to deal with me until i pointed her in the direction of the depression website which contains some awesome guidance for partners etc (http://www.depression.com/index.html) - i highly recommend it.

I just want to thank you all for taking time to post replies on here as every little bit is helping me to recover from something i never thought id get - thats denial for you.

All the best :D

Hi guys

I told my husband about this site on Sunday. Don't know why i didn't before but as he doesn't really understand depression and anxiety so i didn't think he'd understand why i needed to go on this site and see how a bunch of strangers are getting on. He seemed okay about it though so i am pleased i told him. I told him how much it has helped me, not feeling so alone. When i first went on flu he got angry with me and said to just pull myself together and that i was weak because i needed tablets, said it would never happen to him, i thought it would never happen to me, it did!!! He is understanding now so Chalkie try showing your wife the site, it may help.

I'm very lucky as i don't have the added stress of going to work, when i was first ill i couldn't even get out of bed in the morning, the only reason i did is because i had the children to deal with, 1 and 2 year old boys then. I'd not feel like doing anything until midday when i felt better! Why is it that mornings are so much worse.

I've now been coming off flu since boxing day, a tablet every other day. Not feeling too bad but i was going to start 1 day on 2 days off last week but i've put that off for a while as i was starting to feel bad (not too bad) in the mornings again, slowly but surely, no hurry i guess but i want to get off them.

Sorry for waffling, can't stop once i get started.

Hope you're all having a better day today. The sun is shining here so that helps.

Sam[/list]

Many thanks to you too HT.

We all need support and encouragement from each other. Nothing new to report but thanks for your advice. Shakes this morning and now trapped nerve so when i sit down whole body shakes, makes typing interesting - need a new body!

Snow on drive now cleared. Will probably venture out soon, a dummy run.

Thanks again and keep in contact.

Best wishes :lol:

I'm also feeling down today with return to work due next week - I don't think it's a coincidence, this is the underlying problem for me. I am now 4 months in to being at home and feel I must make the effort but it's not easy, I have a new job (same place) and new boss so I should be feeling positive but I'm not, just extremely nervous.

Chalkie, I think it's too soon for you - don't rush. I'll let you know how I get on, it will probably be better than I think.

PG :roll: