cant cope depresion has kicked in again
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so i will start by telling you abit about me im single live alone with no friends and family live away from me im 42 male this post has taking me 2 days to actually post cos i feel embarrest of who i have become used to love life allways busy had something fun to enjoy these days im lucky if i either get out of bed or out of my chair going outside scares the life out of me somedays im not on any medication i know i need to go see my doctor but the thought of having to go outside alone scares the sh@t out of me using the phone to actually ring the doctors surgery to make the appointment scares me cos i no i will have to talk to someone i cant go on feeling the way i do i get terrible anxiety loss of breath and feel sickly feel very panicky the doctors is either long walk or a bus ride away and being trapped on abus for 25mins scares the life out of me im unemployed trying to look for work i really am but then i lose all concentrationi wander off topic sat here now with my head in my hands wondering if i should post this or delete it again im not suicidal but if i was to die tomorrow then so be it at lat i wont fel like this anymore
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rachel1970 noname1
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elizabeth20203 noname1
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Best wishes.
Elizabeth
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froggy2 noname1
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Hope you are really over it.. my engagement broke up in 2011 and I'm still walking round with a failure badge even though i'm also over it. I'm 47 and I don't feel I will try again though I'm looking, which means that I'm keeping the badge, not replacing it with someone who works better with me.
Your delaying thing if its the same as what I've got? I'll describe it as I don't want to do XYZ cause I scenarioise that there will be a problem so it makes going out so much more difficult. OR I say today I will go to the doc. and when I don't I wear the failure badge AND its is so much more difficult the next day as the docs is now a dread / negative experience instead of an opportunity to fix stuff.
I'm unfortunatly someone who instead of saying "Wheres a will theres a way" to "Where theres a will theres a wont."
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1. coming off the VenFaxine meds really helped me as I had more mental energy to say RIGHT I WILL do this NOW. positively.
2. from the forum talk, see everything as an opportunity. This is realy hard but somethimes it works, I have 1 good experience every now and again, and that makes it easier to suggest to myself next time that I may have a better time.
3. Others on this forum like walking and I was unsure, but now agree.. do the the walk sounds best rather than bus. I love the train so I do that whenever I can cause its positive for me, but walking does help to get the body circulating right, gets rid of "bad blood" and I seem to concentrate less on the issue, and more on what i'm going to say, and more on getting to the place, so walking is good.
Best of luck!
And keep writing.
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kristina16197 noname1
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take care
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elizabeth20203 noname1
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Best wishes.
Elizabeth.
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elizabeth20203 noname1
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Best wishes.
Elizabeth.
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