Citalopram after bereavement and nervous breakdown
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I have been to the doctors today as I lost my dad 7 weeks ago and coped very well for the first 5 weeks then went downhill.
The doctor said I have had a nervous breakdown from my symptoms which are the following.
Recurring nightmares
Too scared to sleep then wake up screaming
Jumping at every noise
Paranoia about people
Feel really unsafe in my house and out places
Shaking hands and knees
Head shakes up and down
Feel people are sick of me
Real fear for no reason
Mumbling when talking
Pulling eyelashes out
Confused a lot
Crying for no reason
I've also started using a comfort blanket again which I haven't done since I was 4. I took a liking to a particular feel of one of our pillowcases and used it very single night till my husband bought me a child's blanket in the same material. It started just using it at night but now if I can't find it when I wake during the night I go crazy and very anxious till I find it. Also it's started coming with me around the house and today I took it to the doctors with me in my handbag so I could put my hand in my bag and feel it when anxious.
Sorry for the long topic I just wanted to explain what's been happening and see people opinions if I should start taking these tablets. I am not nervous about trying them but I am nervous about the potential of being hooked and having a very hard withdrawal.
In the next year or so me and my husband would like to try for a baby so would defo like to be off them by then if possible.
Does anyone have any thoughts?
Thanks for reading xxx
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louise1974 mrs_se
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You sound like you are going through a really really hard time. My mother in law died last year and my sister in law (her daugther) also started carrying around a comfort blanket with her where ever she went. I think you do need a bit of help here. Don't worry about being hooked, these meds really aren't like that and hving come off anti depressants in the past I can tell you that it really isn't that bad at all. You sound like you are suffering from acute anxiety, I've been there myself and it's a horrible place to be. My advice is take the meds, and also try and go for a walk each day, just to prove to yourself you can. It WILL get better I promise. Also you have been through a big thing losing your dad, don't under estimate it xx
linda72262 mrs_se
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You poor thing! Yes, you should start taking the tablets. It sounds like you've had a rough go of it. You'll get through it.
Best,
Linda
AnonymousWoman mrs_se
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Do remember that things can only get better. Some counselling may be good to help you with your bereavement too.
Hope things get better, stay strong
anonymousgirl xxxx
judy1959 mrs_se
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mrs_se
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I've decided to take your advice and start the tablets. They're quite a low dose I think. 20mg a day.
It's really helpful having support from you all and I have a great and understanding husband and family so I'm sure I'll get through it all.
Lots of love xxx
louise1974 mrs_se
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Glad you have decided to start the tablets. You will have a few days of increased anxiety so bear with it, it does get better. You can always come on here and have a vent.
Hugs x
mrs_se
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My doctor said 2-3 weeks
Xxx
louise1974 mrs_se
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AnonymousWoman mrs_se
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Hang on in there! Try to think of enjoyable things to do just for yourself to keep yourself busy on your time off too!
anonymousgirl xxx