Citalopram has broken me will I ever recover?

anyone

I was on citalopram for around 2 - 3 years and I experienced exactly the same thing as you did. I tried to come off of it at least 4 times but failed the first 3 times due to rushing and cutting my doses too quickly. I would have an experience a sort of shocking in my brain and I would feel disconnected quite a lot. I tapered down over 2 months until I was taking half of the lowest dose every day. I was in contact with my GP every time I thought I was ready to lower the dosage further and this really helped.

I've been off of them for just over a year or so now, I feel like my emotions are mostly back to normal but the first few months were pretty rough and there was always the temptation to go back on them, but if you feel you're ready to make that step then I really would say go for it. I was lucky at the time because I had a therapist meeting every 2 weeks which offered me a place to speak about my problems and guidance on how to cope with things.

That would be my first suggestion, find a service that offers CBT or talking therapy to help you cope. There's also many resources online if you search for CBT. Through that I found that mindfulness was a massive helper as it reconnected me to the world as the chemicals in my brain started to normalise.

The feeling that you're giving your partner a bad life is something I really struggled with, but I found that if I spoke to them and explained my issues, they were willing to support me and stick by my side while I regained control of everything. Don't be afraid to ask them for help because you feel it will burden them or push them away in some way.

There is a light at the end of the tunnel, you won't feel like this forever but don't rush, give yourself as much time as you need for every step. My whole journey to get my life back together still hasn't finished, it's been 6 months since I've needed any therapy, I slip back into the depression on some days and that's absolutely fine, it gets a lot easier once you learn how to pick yourself back up again.

I was on 20mg of citalopram for 6 months after being increased after only 4 weeks of being on 10mg and I had the exact same thing for the entire 6 months! I was unable to cry, unable to feel emotion or connection to those closest to me, it was awful! I finally decided that I was going to start decreasing myself and was going to tell the doctor to switch me to something else because it was not getting any better, it only got worse, and I never had that numb feeling before the celexa so I was sure that it was causing it. Well, I got down to 15mg and I started to feel good, like actually normal again so I stuck with it and its been 3 weeks or so now, and I definitely have more good days then bad, and I'm starting to feel a little emotion now. Possibly the 20mg was just too high for me? I feel like a lot of people I've seen post that the dose was too high got this numb feeling.. Anyway, going to just keep my fingers crossed that I will continue to feel better.