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This is my first post on here but I spent days and days trawling through during my darkest period of depression last year and they gave me hope and a focus so thank you all for posting especially the good/success stories because there are fewer of these because these people have recovered and are living their lives because the medication has worked (always be hopeful on that). I slipped into a severe depression after getting a vestibular problem and then believing I was very ill through health anxiety. I think the extreme stress sent me spiralling. I had experienced depression some 15 years earlier at the age of 20 and got through it, took about 6 months to lift without meds and then nothing since. Last year was different, I was experiencing panic attacks and anxiety (very new to me), I had no interest in anything, struggled to get out of bed, was off work for 5 weeks and the worst part was losing interest in my little boy who was only 15 months old at the time.
After demanding that the doctor gave me anything to help me I was started on 10mg of cit increased after 2 weeks. I can't remember much in the way of side effects, perhaps some tiredness, fuzzy head but to be honest I was so unwell I probably wouldn't have really cared or noticed. The panic attacks stopped within a few days and I started sleeping again. My light bulb moment came on day 19, the black cloud lifted and life started again. I never looked back, I was back at work the following week and things got better and better. I had some counselling sessions and was referred for CBT but they didn't think it would be effective for me. I was just me again and life was good. I started to lower my dose in the August and finally came off at the end of November with no side effects or change of mood. I was very lucky.
Hindsight is a wonderful thing and although I was ready to come off it was obviously not the right time. In Jan/Feb I started to hit minor stresses - work, family illness, bad back etc and although sailed through started to feel I was in a rut at the end of February and then about 10 days ago another mood shift, the same old feelings creeping in, I'll fight it I said but very quickly found myself going downhill like I was on a helter skelter that I needed to get off before hitting the bottom. So I am now back on 10mg and I'm hoping this will even me out, I'm nothing like I was but couldn't guarantee I wasn't heading back there. My other issue is that I am really keen to have another baby and that was also my reason for reducing and coming off. I'm 36 so didn't want to wait too much longer.
So any advice would be grateful please on anyone who has done something similar and managed to reduce and come off successfully the second time round and how long did it take? Was 10mg enough to get you back on an even keel and start to feel better again? Anyone TTC or pregnant whilst on citalopram and what were your doctor's views on that?
I am sorry for the long winded post, I just wanted to give some background and hope that parts of my post have helped at whatever stage you are at in your recovery.
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