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Hi everyone my names Lauren,
So I kind of have a lot going on right now. I have ptsd, panic disorder, and anxiety which effect my day to day functioning. Today I've been having obsessive thoughts about the past and my father. I'm 20 years old and I feel like my dad could care less about my well being. When I was younger he wouldn't even take me to the doctor for an injury because he wanted me to keep playing sports at the time. Anyway my current relationship with my boyfriend is struggling because during the day he goes to work and I stay home and watch the dog when I'm not in school or I work out/do yoga. When he leaves for work I get this horrible feeling like I did when my mom or dad would leave me. They're divorced and live 3 hours apart so I never knew when I would see my parents again. I cannot depend on Evan for my happiness but I'm really struggling with some things in the past that I can't get over.
I've been doing EMDR for months but I feel so hopeless. It's like I'm stuck home all day but my anxiety has been so bad I can't work or keep good grades in school. My childhood traumas are haunting me and my future relationships
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