Coming off citalopram. :(
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I've been on 20mg citalopram now for just over a year. I decided to come off about 3 weeks ago as I had
started to feel so much better, which I put down to a combination of counselling and the drug which really did do wonders for my depression. I actually hadn't realised quite how bad it was till I started taking citalopram and I felt normal!
I've come off it properly, one every 2 days, then half every 2, then quarter every 2/3 days. The whole process took about 3/4 months. Now I'm on nothing. The physical withdrawl hasn't been too bad. I've been dizzy and kinda sick for the first week or so and that's starting to go now. However I've been feeling awful emotionally. I feel just as bad as I did before I started the medication, worse even! I feel incompetent at my job and I've even started wondering if it's right for me, I'm a teacher and I've always loved my job. I'm becoming paranoid about my relationship and tearful at the slightest thing.
I feel very depressed and unstable if that makes sense. I almost feel suicidal. Is this normal?? I really need some reassurance that I won't need to be on this for the rest of my life.
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Ms_Mac
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Cuckoogoose
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Can anyone tell me what to do. I am inches away from reaching for my tablets and taking a double dose. I can feel the tears filling up and I don't know why I am feeling sorry for myself.
Ms_Mac
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This WILL pass.
Cuckoogoose
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It helps to know someone is listening. It is my day off today do I am going to drag myself out of bed and go for a nice long walk. Although the weather is awful again. Wet and foggy which doesn't help anyone at the best of times.
I hope you are fully over your accident and feeling better xx
Ms_Mac
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Getting over the fall but got loads of stress dealing with insurance over the leak in my kitchen. All to much for a woman on her own.
Someone is usually on here at different times. Take car.
Ms_Mac
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maureen63566
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Ms_Mac
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We are all different so do it at your own pace. Good luck!
beautifulday
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Can totally agree with you on the lack of care given by NHS for mental health problems. I had a nervous breakdown 13 or 14 years ago after a very bad period in my life and was given no help whatsoever. My GP sent me to a psychiatrist who was very patronising and just dismissed me saying I had nothing wrong, just a bit of anxiety and suggested I go to anxiety management classes. The waiting list was 3 months and I felt desperate. This is after having severe panic attacks whereby I couldnt travel in a car or bus and having to get up several times a night to get dressed and walk the streets. I couldnt function properly and all my motor functions slowed right down, slurred speech and gibbering like an idiot. I felt one day as if I was falling into a black hole which was absolutely terrifying and the outside world was becoming dimmer and fading away. Anyway, to cut a long story short, in the end I just had to sit it out and with the help of self help books it got a little better. Eventually, I found a better doctor who put me on citalopram, which was at the time a life saver.
So yes, totally agree that we desperately need better help from the NHS for mental health care. Some of these so called "professionals" are rubbish.
allison83075
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I feel weird, spacey and emotional but I'm going to try and see it through. Oh and I have acquired a lovely new set of bags under my eyes. All in all, I look dreadful, but I'm going to give it a bit longer. My husband and kids are on their way to Sydney (without me, long story...) this weekend, which will give me nearly 3 weeks to sort myself out.
I hope that your symptoms start going, but it does sound to me that you are doing it the right way. Come back and let us know how you are getting on. All the very best, Allison.
ben15759
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To massive bouts of depression ....I'm fine in the morning and I think "yes! I've done it!" Then by late afternoon and evening I'm a wreck....making rash decisions about changing my life. Is anyone else finding that the evenings are the hardest?
Ms_Mac
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Ms_Mac
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beautifulday
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I always find evenings to be the hardest too, guess its some sort of primeval response? Maybe in our genes to be more wary at night for instance. We probably feel best in the mornings due to (hopefully) a good night's sleep. Hang on in there for as long as you can.
jim92195
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17 years on SSRI's. Seroxat and last 10 years Citalopram.
Withdrew to 10mg and then got liquid citalopram. (Just ask GP)
10mgs is 3 drops of liquid cit
Over next 10 days I reduced my daily dose by 10%.
I did this by putting 3 drops into 30ml of water
I the drew out measured amount using baby syringe I got from pharmacist.
I think this is the best way to withdrawal other than I did it far too quick.
The 10% drops should be over months not days!
Fine down to 2.5 mgs then dizzy spells and withdrawals started.
Now day 4 of zero Citalopram.
Worst effect is if I move head quickly my eyes don't follow.
Headache/dizzy and flu like sysmtoms.
Anger and manic feelings.
Low mood/tearful.
Other than that ok:-)
Trying to eat well and walk 5 miles a day.
Having read loads on this subject,I expect this may last a while but I am determined get off this stuff for good.
I keep telling myself these symptoms are my brain recovering and not me getting ill again.
Will post my progress.
56 year old male.