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Hey folks, ive just posted on the mirtazapine group regarding my constant battle with anxiety. I know it's not just the med it's also an issue I need to learn to cope and deal better with. But it just seems phys and emotional symptoms get worse and worse. most days I won't leave my room. I have constant morning anxiety everyday from wake up till the evening. It does settle on a night time most nights and I feel my normal self. But from opening my eyes to late evening it's a constant battle, oh gosh what will today bring, doom and gloom. I just feel so Negative most days. Last week I had two good days where I felt so positive and I even went out with my partner for a walk etc.first time out the house all year. But I'm just so up qnd down I csn plan anything as most days I won't leave my house. I have let my thoughts and fears win and I am convinced I'm dying for some reason. My head belives I am. Not sure what off but I keep thinking am dying from all the phphysical symptoms I'm going though with the anxitey. I do read anxity no more book and it helps me understand things but then I just end up still having anxity attacks every day and crying thinkkng am dying. The adrenaline is through the roof it feels all over and the heart palps and shortens off breath scare me as I feel am not breathing properly and getting my self All worked up and go in to awful anxity shakes and head goes into over drive. My poor body and mind is drained, this has all escalated over the past 6 months. Only thing I've tried to do is reduce my mirtazapine very very slowly as it seems it's making me 10 times worse. This is not me and I have suffered anxitey from a young age and always been able to get through it, but this is another level. Every day is a battle I am completely drained and dont want to try any other meds. I want to learn to tackle my anxious tthinking my self's and get help with cbt. I notice that if I don't eat every couple of hours my anxity spikes so I have bananas to hand. I do feel it's my thought process and I am trying to feel Positive but I can't get it out my head thst there is something wrong with me.Docs checked my blood about a year ago all fine and somehow my blood pressure is ideal haha. But I feel I keep noticing my racing heart and body sensations qnd paying them too much attention. Sorry for ranting but I have tried all sorts of self help and vitamins, I am also working on my diet intake as i am aware certain foods effect anxity. I used to exercise all the time but going up the stares freaks me out as I feel my heart rate change. All of this is not usually what am like.. Just feel am never going to be ok again
I feel drained. I do suffer from ocd I've been told and I have always knew I do but it never bothered me used to jusr brush it off, but now it's lkke ocd negative thoughts and thinking am dying it's pretty crippling to be honest. I feel a prisoner to my own thoughts and am missing out on enjoying life. I'm 32 year old female and I just feel am letting anxity beat me. I feel its so hard to function on these mirtazapine they are causing all sorts of side effects but I'm half way off my withdrawal but scared to drop any further as things just get too much. if anyone has any tips or.advice that would be great as I feel I've bored the ears of people close and I feel it would be nice to talk to people who suffer with similar issues.. Anyway thanks for listening All.. Shez
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danny198658 shez32
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As it happen I have a tattoo music is my life haha I love music all kinds of it
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sarah87559 shez32
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sarah87559 shez32
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I tired mindfulness a little it helped my breathing as cbt and docs keep saying am breathing all wrong. Too shallow qnd short from the shoulders. They say I need to calm down and relax and deeper breaths out. I try but it's hard to change something I do so often for 32 years ha. I know what they mean tho correct breathing is massively important. Oh I love waves and rain fall noises at night so i shall try it on wake up too. They say in the morning get up and try do something but I struggle since I've took theee tabelts morning is a constant issue for me. One doc thinks I don't need tabelts and just belive in my self and cbt but in scared that am stuck on these things now as I can't handle the wd at the moment am so low qnd fed up I'm out of my normal strength. I am very tempt to try the serts but scared too
sarah87559 shez32
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yes keep me posted on things lass and I shall keep checking in too, good to see us all fighting same battle together. We can get through it as with life i feel we have no choice but to plod on so might as well try be happy ha :-)
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So did u go to Vegas then? Loads I know have been and they are like "shez it's like your dream place" ya missing out. I have never been abroad but I do have a surf van that I work on to try travel around one day. I've planned my trip around Europe but ar the moment I won't leave me city
It sucks having so much u want to do but feel stuck in one place.
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