Day 1
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I've been depressed for about two and a half years but in the typical man way I've just 'got on' with it while I now realise in hindsight I have just been getting progressively worse.
I left my work early yesterday citing a fictional ailment and phoned in for work sick again this morning. I decided that today is the day I finally see someone and try and get this sorted. After a few hours of procrastinating and dilly-daddling I got on the phone.
I've only been in the city where I am now for a few months and haven't registered with a GP. I rang NHS 111 and explained to them how I've been feeling, that I'm not registered anywhere and if they have any advice. They suggested a walk-in clinin in town which I went to. They told me in the nicest way possible that as I'm not registered with a GP, there's nothing they can do and gave me the number for an out of hours doctor.
I'm going to register at my local doctors tomorrow but even then it's going to take 48 hours just to be registered on the system, then however long after that to just get an appointment.
I know I've been pretty naive in expecting to see someone straight away but today was my breaking point and it needed be done.. I feel more lost, drained and empty now than I ever have when I was faking it and putting on the face and not seeking help for my depression.
I'm currently living in a shared property with people I don't know, my friends are all over the country/world and I have minimal contact with my family. I know I'm going to lose my job. I haven't been there long and can't face going in again this week which means they will just get rid of me, which I've accepted. This leaves me with no money which will inevitably leave me unable to pay my rent and end up with me being homeless.
As mentioned before I now realise I have been very naive in expecting the ball to start rolling in the right direction for me just because I have decided to seek help. The reality is from my first day that the options of where to turn are very limited or have not yet been presented to me. After the sad case of Robin Williams and the media attention surrounding depression because of it I thought this would be a suitable time as peoples perceptions towards depression turn to a more understanding viewpoint.
After my first day of seeking help I am ultimately left feeling lost, disillusioned and a whole lot worse with no idea where to turn to.
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sentinelmed b94888
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As you have told, you are facing problems financially too. I belive you should go back to your parents for sometime, meet your friends, try to spend some time with them and enjoy. This will make you emotionally sound and strong. This will help you come out of depression to some extent. The other plus point is that you don't have to worry about you being homelles.
I wish you very good luck and a healthy life ahead.
elizabeth20203 b94888
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jackie82937 b94888
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Really sorry to hear how you are suffering, I have done much research after my husband became ill with depression apparently it is more difficult for men to admit to depression and seek help, you've done amazingly well, I've had issues myself anxiety and agoraphobia so know what it's like too. My husband left us all some 11 months ago, despite offers of help he has refused even from medical professionals.
My husband has "left" his job and we now face reposession he had worked for the same co for 17 years and it was a mental health trust, he could easily have taken a year off work 6 motnsh at full pay 6 months at half pay but he told me he had been having gfights with people at work so we don't know the true story did he leave of was he pushed?
Despite having no money that does not matter to me his health does and I told him we would support him no matter what and if we didn't have one penny left as long as we had each other nothing else would matter but sadly he has pushed us all away to deal with this on his own which in 18 months he hasn't!
You've taken the first step which is a massive step, make sure you are honest about your feelings so you can get the right help. I really wish you the very best, you will get through this, it will take time but you will get there with the right help, upport and treatment.
Allycats b94888
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hypercat b94888
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If you do get sacked you should make a claim to benefit (probably ESA would be best) when you see the doctor. Then you will also be able to claim housing benefit and council tax rebate. So don't panic you will get by. Let us know how you get on.