Day 2 of citalpram after 18 month break.
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Hi, I've restarted citalpram. Took 20mg and I felt I could barely cope. So last night I took just 10mg and I'm awake now, it's 4.30am and I feel a bit anxious and hot but not like yesterday. I kept bursting into tears, feeling like I was loosing my mind. Couldn't sit still, and felt as if I was shaking all under my skin. Just feel angry that I'm back here. Hate the first week on these things, make me feel worse than ever, just hoping it helps me again and I can feel more myself. Hate my children seeing me this way. Plus it's the Easter holiday as well. Just having a pity party I guess and feeling like the worst mother. That's all. Guess I just wanted to rant and rave. Thanks.
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yommymommy79 hannah_93094
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You are were I was a few months ago...second time I have been down this road and it sucks big hairy balls 😂😂
As you can tell I am starting to feel better now 😊and you will too. Don't worry about the kids they are so resilient...and you are doing the best you can do right now...and that's enough for them x x x
hannah_93094 yommymommy79
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thanks for for taking the time to reply. I've slept for an hour and woken up boiling again. It's now 6.11am, I am hating this. I just keep thinking, what have I done to deserve this? I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I am trying my best and I love them so much. Just got to hang in there I suppose. Thanks again xx
john059 hannah_93094
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hannah_93094 john059
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john059 hannah_93094
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Felis hannah_93094
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How well I remember those awful early mornings racked with anxiety, feeling hot pins and needles up my arms and face, shaking ,trembling jelly legs and crying!! I also felt worse taking the tablets than I did before the meds! So this is all sounding familiar and yes it is hideous. I don't know how I dragged myself out of bed to drive my kids to school.
Fast forward now to about twenty months down the track and I feel fantastic anxiety free and finding joy in life. Never thought I could feel as good again but it took me a good six months to be anxiety free. Also you may eventually find improvement then a blip will occur and you will think you are back to square one.
Hang on and weather the storm because it is well worth it.Let us know how you get on ,we are all here to help.xx
hannah_93094 Felis
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katecogs hannah_93094
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This is my second time on these meds too. Remember, though it takes time, you won't feel this severe all the way through. It eases as time moves on. You know these meds work for you, and they'll help you again.
K x
hannah_93094 katecogs
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katecogs hannah_93094
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Yes I had anxiety too, but it caused me to be depressed too.
Remember this is an illness, and you need time to recover. You can't help it and your body is simply doing what it's doing. The meds will help you again in time.
My children were also little when I was ill the first time around and found it a struggle to start with. I've cried at the doctors many times and even cried on the cat (poor thing had soggy fur more than once). This is temporary, and in time you'll be back to being yourself again and able to enjoy being a mommy again.
K xx
Felis hannah_93094
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when I said six months I meant entirely without any anxiety symptoms at all. The severity of the anxiety lessened each week for six weeks and then I'd have the occasional relapse.
The first few weeks diazapam helped me get a good nights sleep but had morning anxiety for many weeks.
Everyone is different but I'm sure you won't have the severity of anxiety continually ,it should start to ease in a few weeks.Take it one day at a timeX
stevo1975 hannah_93094
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Brian1000 hannah_93094
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just wanted to to let you know my doctor recommended a very useful book Depressive illness-the curse of the strong by Tim Cantopher. It is very re-assuring to read when you get the feeling that you are letting everyone down and re-enforces the need to look after yourself just now as well as practical advice. I have had very much the same kind of feelings of letting everyone down both family and work!
take care
Brian
hannah_93094 Brian1000
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Brian1000 hannah_93094
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all the best
katecogs hannah_93094
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K xx