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Day 8 on increased dose and feeling worse than ever.

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lee1111
lee1111

I was so hopeful that I may have started feeling a slight bit better by now. Nothing but extreme fatigue and my appetite has gone. I can not afford to get any thinner. The thought of a party tomorrow night fills me with dread, and I still get headaches almost daily. Would rather be in bed by 8 pm. I am sorry to sound so negative after reading others success stories and preaching patience. I am finding this very hard at the moment. I need to keep being reminded that I will be my happpy, sociable and energetic self again sometime soon as I am feeling so lousy. Thanks so much, Lee.

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  • lorraine52317
    lorraine52317 lee1111

    Posted

    Hi Lee

    it's a horrendous illness and i honestly know what you are going through. I kept worrying about losing so much weight as i knew lack of nutrition would slow down my recovery. ..which it did! After six months on my antidepressant I was looking anorexic and I had no clothes that would fit me. Not that it mattered as I was laying in bed all day every day. It's only now that I have swapped antidepressants am I starting to feel better. My appetite and energy and clarity of mind is starting to return.

    If you are no better after 3 months I would suggest looking at trying a different antidepressant.

    don't force yourself to do anything that you are not up to doing. Eg if this party is too much just send your apologise.

    Take care and wishing you a swift recovery xx

    • lee1111
      lee1111 lorraine52317

      Posted

      Thanks Lorraine. I will keep pushing through this. I have tried a few SSRI meds and don't want to change meds just yet as it is early days, but I hear you. I am glad you are feeling well again. lee x
  • geoff29865
    geoff29865 lee1111

    Posted

    Hi Le,

    let me start by reiterating that you are not alone, and you are perfectly normal. I say this simply because when i,m at my lowest, i feel lonely and desperate. The meds can take a few weeks, sometimes up to a month, to get into your system. The only thing with keep telling yourself things will get better, is that when they don't you feel worse. However, having said that, things will get better. The old saying goes; a journey of a thousand miles starts with a single footstep. So, take one small step at a time, and when you achieve something, no matter how small, pat yourself on the bac

    k and celebrate. Don't be afraid to talk about how you fee, it's surprising how it makes you feel better. Remember, real men do cry.

    keep in touch, let me know how you are getting along.

    • lee1111
      lee1111 geoff29865

      Posted

      You are so right Geoff, it can feel horrible and lonely on this journey. Will stick to the small steps and thank you for the encouragement. I hope you feel better soon too, and stay in touch. Lee.
  • Guest
    Guest lee1111

    Posted

    Lee you will get better and you will look back at this one day and say omg that was terrible I never want to go back there.

    Well mate you are here now and we all got here some how . so now it's your time to change your life style. It's a time to reset your self a do over what ever you call it .

    Try and be positive about things put your smile on tell your self and keep on telling your self you are better than this and you are getting better .if you keel telling your self are are I'll and down and sad you will be.you are slowly brain washing yourself. So go out tonight to your party and show people the good old Lee is back .

    • lee1111
      lee1111 Guest

      Posted

      That is lovely. I have committed to the party so there is no looking back. Sticking with the program and hoping to feel an improvement sooner rather than later. It took me 6 weeks just to get onto 10 mg comfortably, so I need to be patient. Today I just feel low and filled with despair at the thought of all the socialising ahead. Tomorrow I will force feed myself and put on a brave face. Thanks for the support Gawen. Lee 
    • Guest
      Guest lee1111

      Posted

      Lee ,you don't want to be hard on your self I told you I went to hypnotherapy. And one if the things he said to me was

      "The words after you say ,I feel or I am ,or I am going . WIll stick and you are brain washing your self so no more I feel shit a am going mad .

      So I am getting better .or better still I feel fantastic !!! I feel great . repeat it to your self ,you may feel that way but your brain is listening !!!!! You are not going to pass out at your party you not going to die as of this its just you have had a horrible time of it and your brain needs to rest so be kind to your sekf

  • Marf
    Marf lee1111

    Posted

    Unfortunately it sounds like you're going through the rubbish side effects again, like at the beginning when you started 10mg. If you've done 8 days then you've done really well. You can either plough through or drop back to 10mg (did you go up as 10 wasn't enough?) xxxmuch love xxx you will get better it just take flipping ages! xxx
    • lee1111
      lee1111 Marf

      Posted

      Hey Marf, my Dr felt I was sort of flat and would benifit more from 20mg. I could have argued, but have felt flat and antisocial. I hate being a misery as I have a beautiful family and so much to be thankful for. So for now I am going to plough through and hope the side effects deminish and will wait how ever many flipping ages it takes. wink Thanks a ton. Lee.
  • ray69021
    ray69021 lee1111

    Posted

    Hi Lee

    it took me about four weeks before I started to feel better, and the side effects were not good either, but it's not all bad news be sure you will get better and be back to your old self , it may not feel it now but it will happen. 

    Be lucky Ray

  • rinmoe
    rinmoe lee1111

    Posted

    Hey lee.... My second week was pretty rough with anxiety, n all I sanded to do was curl up n hide, n it's exactly what I did. I started on 20, wheww, a bit much I think to start on, but that's what the doc said, so I trusted her. I'm on day 22 now, last 2 days were decent, so I'm hoping I'm rounding a corner, but who knows, lots of ups n downs on this so far. You will get better, in time. Breathe! Relax! Ul get there before u know it, but it's hard to stay positive when u feel like this. Good luck...
    • lee1111
      lee1111 rinmoe

      Posted

      Thanks rinmoe...good to hear you have had some good days. I hope it lasts and that you have a happy weekend. I will just try to relax and let things unfold as they will. I hope that next week is a better one for all of us. cheers , Lee.
  • Felis
    Felis lee1111

    Posted

    Lee 

    I truly understand how you are feeling I was there too and it's extra hard being the festive season when you would love to be out having a good time.All I can suggest is one day at a time in fact I used to try and distract myself to get through one hour at a time ! Eventually it will pass and there will be no more anxiety .Although the early mornings were always the worst and this lasted the longest.

    Try making smoothies for yourself Google for recipes and this will be easy to digest and provide you with the nutrition you need.

    i never thought I'd be rid of this either or feel normal again but it took months not weeks.! Do hope this gives you some support. Always here for you xx

    • lee1111
      lee1111 Felis

      Posted

      Thank you so much Felis. Some days it is hard to feel as if I will ever be my old self again, but I have to leep believing that with time things would settle. going to do the smoothie thing for sure and add a little weight. I usually have a fairly healthy appetite so this and the weight loss is horrible for me. It is so encouraging in the early days to get such supportive responses from this group, and I do so appreciate it. Thank you. Lee.
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