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I have been living with this constant anxiety since June of last year. When we lost the family business and my step Father passed away.
It hit me like a brick and hasnt give in since. After a couple of panic attacks, some in public places, I went to my GP, Although he was back then sympathetic, I dont think he is listening to how bad this is.
It is that bad that I can not leave the house alone anymore. I can,t walk and my legs and neck shake which is very obvious to see. I can,t answer the home phone and have disconnected my mobile. I have had some CBT sessions but did't feel that they helped, it was almost like the doctor did,t believe what I was saying, I found it very distressing to have to answer all kinds of questions to someone I had only just met. They suggested a time of reflection (not sure what they meant by that) and then start the CBT again. Problem is getting to the appointments. I cant go out!
To get on a bus or tram would be very distressing, my palms are sweating just imagining it. Going in to a shop is hell, its like I need to run, get out of there ASAP. I find it hard to speak aswell, sometimes the words just wont come out.
I went to an official appointment and when my name was called I couldnt stand up to walk, I was so frightend, all I could do was sit there and burst out in tears (I was devastated), the security guard had to help me to my feet, I left without attending the appointment
I have supportive friends and family but I tend to hide away from them and wouldnt talk about my anxiety to them.
Now all this set aside, my main problem is I need to go back to work as my redundancy will run out within the next few weeks.
Feeling really stuck here, how can I go back to work, if I cant leave the house or interact in any social situation? Any advice would be much appreciated.
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