Depressed.... again
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Hi, my name is Oliver, a few months ago i was in a dark place. I closed myself off from everyone and was on the edge of suicide. The only thing i wanted was not to be hear anymore. I could have taken some 'Happy' pills but i am not a believer in drugs and think that route is a never ending cycle. Cut a long story short i somehow hot over it and was on top of the world and was happy in life. Unfortunatily it didnt last and around two weeks ago i fel the depression comming back into my mind.
I am finding it alot easy not to open up to people but to write my feelings down this time thanks to previous experiance.
The feeling of worthlesssnes has got to be the worst for me, the feeling of 'if im not here no one would give a sh*t.' yh thats the worst. Getting up every single day and batteling with my mind untill the second i go to sleep. My boss sometimes looks at me asif there is something wrong with me asif i have a problem, a desise.
Evan when i was happy there was still something there, something trying to bring me down but i fought it off and came out on top every time. But now its different, very different.
I hope to hear from somebody on this ite just for a talk atleast. thank you for reading.
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derek86752 oliver1994
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Trying keep strong I hope you come ont of your depression soon, but at least you can feel when it's going to take place, which is a good.
emz2169 oliver1994
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oliver1994 emz2169
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hypercat oliver1994
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The view of them as 'happy pill' is a bit misleading. Nowadays they are often used short term to enable you to feel better about yourself and more able to deal with your problems. The ad's now are nothing like the old ones like valium and librium which were very addictive and had nasty side effects. The newer ones like prozac, sertraline etc. are a lot less addictive and less likely to have severe side effects. x
Slowly_dieing oliver1994
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Exercise and meditation are also really good ways to help or so I am told.
I get the "happy" bit to the outside world I'm this big bubbly person but to my other half, the only person in the world who really knows me...including my parents who although know what is going on i don't show them what i show her to her i'm a moody so and so who has ups and downs but she trys to help my making me do things and keeping my brain busy like going for walks and doing active hobbies or even just laying in the bath to relax away from everyone.
Slowly_dieing
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Don't talk to other women/men tho as that just lands you in all sorts of trouble so if you want to talk/write things down try a professional if not your partner....if you can't talk to your partner face to face try writing a good old fashioned letter as it means she has to read and can't imiediantly reply like she can with texts etc which will give you both time to let things sink in as it were! I have found this fantastic and have now almost got them to be like "love letters" where I tell her exactly how I feel, how she makes me feel and I can be open and honest about things.
She actually enjoys receiving them in the post! :-) It's brought a whole new dimension to our relationship!
michael98615 oliver1994
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