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Hi, my name is Oliver, a few months ago i was in a dark place. I closed myself off from everyone and was on the edge of suicide. The only thing i wanted was not to be hear anymore. I could have taken some 'Happy' pills but i am not a believer in drugs and think that route is a never ending cycle. Cut a long story short i somehow hot over it and was on top of the world and was happy in life. Unfortunatily it didnt last and around two weeks ago i fel the depression comming back into my mind.
I am finding it alot easy not to open up to people but to write my feelings down this time thanks to previous experiance.
The feeling of worthlesssnes has got to be the worst for me, the feeling of 'if im not here no one would give a sh*t.' yh thats the worst. Getting up every single day and batteling with my mind untill the second i go to sleep. My boss sometimes looks at me asif there is something wrong with me asif i have a problem, a desise.
Evan when i was happy there was still something there, something trying to bring me down but i fought it off and came out on top every time. But now its different, very different.
I hope to hear from somebody on this ite just for a talk atleast. thank you for reading.
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