Depression!!!

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Depression is feeling ok one minute and wanting to die the next

Depression is a feeling that nobody else gets

Depression is horrid, depression is bad

Depression is more than just feeling sad

It's torture to the mind the body and soul

It makes you feel like you're losing control!

Sometimes you wake and all seems well

Then you realise you're still in this hell!

Depression isn't just a myth it's not just what people say when they're just sad or having a bad day

Depression is real, as real as it gets but everybody close to you hasn't noticed it yet!

You could try, you could try to explain, but nobody except you will understand your pain

So we keep it quiet, hold it all on our shoulders

If only we'd known if only someone had told us

Just how hard and tough this illness could be that it's the truth and not make believe!

If only our family and friends just knew, we'd have them to rely on and not just a few!

Me? I love my family with all that Ive got but they don't understand that I go through a lot!

I could try to explain I could try to make them see but they are just them and I am just me!

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  • Posted

    Your still in this dark place, dondons
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  • Posted

    Sounding deep down in a hole dondons

    Can we fling a rope

    BOB

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  • Posted

    Great poem. Very, very true.
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  • Posted

    Dear dondons

    I hear your pain. We are here to support you because we understand.

    Don't give up - try and just do 1 small thing a day and keep putting 1 foot in front of the other - it is so very hard, all of us on these forums know so.

    Don't give up.....

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  • Posted

    So true.  Have to be careful not to talk to friends and family too much about it. They most often don't understand. They may say something that could hurt your feelings or avoid you

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  • Posted

    An excellent poem and very true to life.

    You also made a great choice to express your inmost feelings in this way. Why don't you try it again - a shorter one if easier - now that 10 days have elapsed?

     

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    Remember the words of the song: 

    NIght seems darkest just before the dawn.

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    Hello, I'm new to this forum. And don't really know where or how to begin. I've never done this before. I am lost and don't know how to get out and begin to live again can someone please help me

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    • Posted

      I don't mean out like outside. I mean out of this long deep black whole that won't let me climb out. Friends say just get out and put one foot in front of the other and take a step a day. That is common knowledge. I know that. But I can't. I try. I'm a prisoner in my own body

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      Hi Penny,

      I know how you feel. The depression sucks the motivation straight out of you.  You don't feel like doing anything.  If you could try with tiny goals. Maybe talk more here for a start. Know that you are not alone and people here will not get tired/bored/annoying when you talk often about your depression.  Hope to hear from you soon, hope it gets better

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      Hi Penny,

        I deal with this depression every day. Just when I think I can't make it through another day, I force myself to do things and I say "this is only passing and I will fiind a way to START living again. People can't do it for you, you Have to do it for yourself. My prayers are with you, my Dear!!

        Steve

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      Steven. And 3anon, thank you. For your response to me. I do set tiny goals for myself. And I pray that if I could just wake up and have one day were I feel normal. I could begin there and keep going and get my life back. I'm just so tired of every day being a struggle just to get through the day to wake up the next day and the same thing. It is not living. It is surviving. Then I get more depressed because I am wasting my life. I just don't know what to do or how to begin to live again. It's not that I'm sad. It is something that has drained all the life out of me. I used to be so outgoing and enjoyed life family and friends. I don't even like going out of my house now. Or even want to answer my phone when it rings. I fear even talking or thinking about it. In fear that I will get worse. I've pleaded and asked for help. And all I get is the same thing. You need to just get up and go shake it off. Begin with one step. If it was that easy. Then I wouldn't be depressed. I would give anything I have to just feel like I have a life and want to live it.

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      HI Penny,  we know how you feel and nothing anyone says really helps. I started visiting this forum because my friends got sick of listening to me or they give me the same suggestions you have gotten. And they really don't understand. I find that I just don't tell them about it anymore because it always in ends in bad results.

      I think though that u have started with a tiny step by talking here. Maybe you can open up more here and maybe start to feel a little better.

      there is no magic solution, i wish to God there were. Feels so unfair to see other people happy and full of life and I am basically a spectator. 

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      There has got to be something out there that will help people!!

      I do know that I'm the only one that can help me.

      I know there is no magic pill or drink. I know that getting through today tomorrow may just be the best day of my life. I know that being with family and friend and talking is suppose to help. I know that walking is suppose to help. I know these things. But they just don't help. I used to own two successful buisness's. Loved to ride my Harley. Loved hanging with friends. I sold off both salons. Because it got to where I didn't even want to walk in them. I don't feel like talking when friends or family would call. Now they rarely call. My bike has Cobb webbs on it ftom sitting so long. I wish I could just find the magical answer to turn all of this around !!!!

      I don't know what else to do or who to even go to that won't tell what I already know. If it was as simple as I'm always told. I wouldn't feel this way. I am willing to do what ever I can to come out of this

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      Well, our brain chemistry is messed up. Our brains don't release enough dopmaines or whatever it is.  We have to change that.

      Meds, see a doctor.

      Also, if you really really want out of this dark hole.  Start exercising minimum one hour a day. Cardio, not yoga get your heart rate up.

      So it will release endorphines.

      Change your diet. eat way healthier.  Google foods that combat depression. Beets give you energy..

      You really should try these things.  It is a long rode, i am at the beginning of this rode

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      Yes, that is so true. I've kept mine inside of me for the past few years. I didn't want family or friends to think that I was weak. I've always been the one there for them. I still try to be. Thinking that if I help them it will help me in return. By keeping my mind off of me and how I feel. But that doesn't work. There has to be something out there!! People can not go through their lives hating every day!! No joy. No happiness. Just feelings worse then misery. There has to be a way to come out of this. People must see how debilitating this is!!!! If it were a injury this bad on the outside of my body. Doctors would do anything everything they could to fix it. Family and friends would see how much suffering people is really in. But, because it is not visible on the outside. They presume it is not a real problem. Just get up and take one step and one day at a time. Think positive. Things will get better. None of that is true.

      I've read books. Listened to tapes taken health vitamins. Minerals. Changing my diet. Changing my lifestyle. Telling my self tomorrow is a bright new day. Telling my self I haven't reason not to be happy. And how many people are in worse lives then I am. Nothing seems to help. I don't want to live. But, I don't want to die either. I just want a little lifeline to pull me up out of this huge black endless whole that I'm in. I don't want anyone to do it for me. I will gladly do it. I just need a life line to begin

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      Hi again, Penny

         Just try to do what I say. It's not easy. If I could tell you what iv'e been through.I have a rare disease of the prostate that when i sit down it feels like I.m sitting on a "golf ball " Ive' had it for 61/2 yrs.but I tell myself that I won't be suffering with it forever. There's just got to be a light at the end of the tunnel. If I live my life the way that GOD wants me to live, surely forgiveness and salvation shall come my way.  Try to think like this Penny and you too will see a light at the end of the tunnel.ok.

         Steve 

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