depression

I was very much the same, didn't take or want to take tablets when my Doctor first suggested, but after 6 months things are finally settling down. I think that is quite good as it can take some longer as we are all different. CBT works for some and doen't for others so if you give it a go I hope it does work for you, if it doesn't so be it! When things didn't go the way I hoped in the early days it was frustrating. It was a little scary too as I didn't know what was happening, but with my partners support and the Doctor's knowledge of Cita (not all GPs are as up to scratch - no disrespect meant!) things finally started to get better. The worse symptom I had was vivid dreams and reduced these by taking Cita just before bed (this doesn't work for everyone mind) and there is one other, if you can call it one, and that is I haven't cried in 6 months. Now and again, I have a wave of emotion that comes and goes just as quick, but never any tears. I guess Cita recognised I needed this and I do believe it has helped (although, I used to enjoy a bit of teariness when watching "It's a Wonderful Life", but that's just between you and me ok?).

My counselling sessions that the Doctor put me forward for help, never, ever materialised. Obviously, there are more deserving cases out there, I have come to realise there are a lot more of us out there since becoming ill.

My therapy has been with the help of angels and they are to be found here! Try, which is difficult, to go with the flow, keep posting and reading here - it really does help!

Bon Voyage!

David

I have a long way to go, but it does get easier. I personally feel that a change of lifestyle has helped (need a little more exercise though!) cutting right down on alcohol (in fact did not drink for 4 months) stopped smoking and just recently ended my employment as, that was what was making me ill.

Just remember that, thinking can tire you too, so don't over think and take one day at a time. On the days where you don't want to get out of bed, stay there until you do. If you find things get too much then remove yourself from that situation (even the ironing! Lol!). On the days you feel like everything is right with the world (Ok quite an over exaggeration there, but we can all hope and pray one day it will), but on those days make the most of it to the best of yer ability at the time. Always be aware that you will be down as well as up.

There is another thing no one has mentioned for a while and that is being able to really let it go, express yerself and work out with a scream and shout, stick the radio on and dance away those blues! This came up as a post a few months back and really got us all talking about it after someone said they couldn't "scream and shout in someone else's house" and many joined in and started talking about dancing, signing, shouting and in my case wailing! I was glad I wasn't the only one who, even when feeling down (with the radio on in the background) while say, doing the dishes I went for it! Neighbours or not! I find Radio2 (UK) has a good mix (of course I must add here that, there are other radio stations available and other countries!!).

Thinking about this, it is strange every time I go into the kitchen my partner turns the radio on?!

Anyway, house work, whenever! The good thing about this time of year we can open the windows and let a bit of fresh air in to help air our homes. It helps to bring a little more life in and wildlife! But hey! everything has it's place.

So, go for it, but in yer own time, as a holy person once said (no names no pack drill (and there are other deitys available, No dis to those who don't)) ...

"everything in moderation, even moderation itself!"

Welcome to the club and you'll always have friends here.

Regards,

David