Depression and Anxiety

Still finding it tough though. I do have my depressed moments. Lastnight i felt a sudden rush of tears run to my eyes with just a single negative thought. I don't cry. No matter what happens, i never really seem to cry. So it was unexpected. I didn't cry though. I do still think about suicide. But its not as strong. Just a negative thought that happens here and there now. Stronger with my recent low mood. But not unmanageable.

luckydip, those questions are answered in my previous posts. But why am i depressed? I don't know. Which is the same response you'll get from most long-term suffers. And in response to the burial. Cremation for me. Religion isn't a part of my life. Never will be.

shirley54, i got a number of blood test done a year ago. Felt like a blood bank. All tests came back good. I'm surprisingly healthly inside. Except for an abnormality with an enzyme in my liver which the doctor couldn't figure out. But side not to worry.

Well i'll finish this up. I'll be seeing my therapist in 2 weeks time again. Not as regular appointments as i'd like with them being 3 weeks apart but its better than nothing. I have a number of things i need to speak to him about. Things i've recently thought of. Could be me worrying but its better to ask. So i'll give an update hopefully more regular.

Thanks for the posts. If anyone has any advice then please post it. All advice welcome. Even if it doesn't apply to me. It might help someone else who is reading it. So its always helpful.

Michael

Well i'll finish this up. I'll be seeing my therapist in 2 weeks time again. Not as regular appointments as i'd like with them being 3 weeks apart but its better than nothing. I have a number of things i need to speak to him about. Things i've recently thought of. Could be me worrying but its better to ask. So i'll give an update hopefully more regular.

Thanks for the posts. If anyone has any advice then please post it. All advice welcome. Even if it doesn't apply to me. It might help someone else who is reading it. So its always helpful.

Michael

Couple things you need to know;

Like many illnesses, depression is curable. Everyone get depressed sometimes, but some of us get it more intense and for longer period than others. There is no shame in getting ill, whatever illness that may be. However, treatment is necessary when one cannot handle it himself. Having said that, medication can only provide half the cure, you have to help cure yourself and do the other half by being positive and focus only on the positive. I know it is not easy when you’re feeling all messed up inside. That’s why you shouldn’t reject medication completely. You need at least a little bit of that in order to stable your mood swing so that you can focus on the positive side of things. Having constant mood swing won’t allow you to do that.

You’ve mentioned that no one takes your depression and suicidal thoughts seriously which frustrates you a great deal. You know what, those “normal & healthy ones” who haven’t experienced the destructive power of depression won’t understand you at all. They might sympathize but they won’t understand. They think you’re perfectly normal as long as you’re conscious and be able to breath, walk, eat and sleep. They don’t know and won’t comprehend how terrible you feel inside. So don’t bother with that. You know how it is and that’s good enough. You need to find strength inside you to deal with it. No one else can. God helps those who help themselves. It is completely okay that others don’t understand you, but don’t get frustrated on their account. There are some who do.

For sharing, I’ve been suffering from sleep disorder for the past ten years. I’ve been tortured by numerous painful and debilitating symptoms that keep me from having a normal sleep and a normal life. I haven’t slept well for an great extensive period of time which results in a serious sleep deprivation. It makes me really depressed at times among other things. I never experienced depression or any of the symptoms related to my sleep disorder prior to this. It caught me unaware. I didn’t know I had it until I got myself in trouble. I was perfectly normal prior to 2003. But now I am suffering this horrible illness alone in silence for ten long years. I look dead tired and feel miserable everyday. My poor appearance does bother some people and make them self conscious. There is not much I can do about it.

Back to you, Michael. Get some help. Try some medication. Try to live a normal life once you have your mood swing under control. Focus on the positive side of things. Feeling sorry for yourself and constantly dwelt on the negatives won’t help you a bit. So be strong and God bless. Take good care.

Dont keep this to yourself...well done for comming on here.Try and try to go back to the gp and ask for some help...i suggest asking for antidepressants...

I to have suffered this...i didnt realise just how bad i was until recently comming off fluoxetine after having beeen on them for nearly a year

I now know that it is something that i live with and at times it gets really bad.

Dont think alone....share....which ever way you can....

Good luck..

well let me tell you , you are not alone in your depression, I am amazed at your gp's response! absolutely disgusting, but as you so rightly say everything takes so long with our nhs system, so my advice is, you have to find somebody to talk to, someone you can trust and open up to, you don't say how old you are or what you think has caused your deprssion, but feel free to talk to me, as I have been there done that and got the tshirt, I'm more than willing to listen, keep in touch,

Love Lynne.

Try another doctor at your surgery and go tomorrow. If you don't get help

look on the net for your nearest Psychiatric Unit. Go along there and ask to see a pychiatrist. You can try and place yourself as a voluntary patient. If your GP won't respond then this is how to make someone listen. That's the hardest part - getting someone to listen. Many GP's aren't trained in psychiatric problems.

Don't be ashamed of what's happening to you. You are ill.

Is there anyone you can talk to who can support you in your efforts to get help. It's really hard to stand up for yourself when your feeling so vulnerable.

I just saw your post and I am wondering how you are doing?

Please please reply...💕