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I'm a 17-year-old boy. I'd continue my old discussion but it has been locked up. However, in short, I sometimes feel extremely stressed out when at home. My parents separated when I was little and now my mother's current boyfriend is practically living with us. Suffice to say, I don't really get along well with him. When he's around the atmosphere feels quite tense. He has a short temper and often I find myself being quite wary and listening to them, trying to spot when the next argument sparks up. I also have a (half-)brother, whose short temper doesn't help the situation either. My anxiety level seems to grow abnormally high when I hear shouting, even if it's not me who is being shouted at.
I can just about cope with this, but a few days ago my mother decided to get a dog. I didn't have a problem with it but I was extremely worried that the atmosphere would tense up even more and a complete chaos would ensue. It's hard to say anything about that at this point, but I find myself grieving my old dog who died almost 10 years ago. The new and the old dog are the same breed and it just recently struck me how alike they look. I've been crying for the past few nights and I feel it's just getting worse. Even though it's been almost 10 years I feel like I'm understanding just about now how much he impacted my childhood and that he's not coming back -- I even feel a bit guilty for remembering him so little after his death. At the same time it freaks me out to notice that I'm this fragile emotionally. I didn't have the best childhood but during times like these my other problems, such as weak self-esteem, are highlighted. I don't know how I can cope with such a stressful environment any longer. Any insight into this would be greatly appreciated.
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