depression, BPD and now an accident

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Hello,

I have been depressed for a very long time (at least the past 10 years, I am currently 23, with bouts long enough to be considered depressed the majority of the year since 2007). Recently I have been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, which was not a surprise as people have discussed it with me before, both professionals and peope living with family members or friends with BPD.

I have been struggling and in different therapies, including EMDR, CBT and schema therapy over the past 8 years, and I have been on anti depressants since 2009. I am also now taking extended release low-dosage anti psychotics, which I have done daily as of 2013. I have a prescription for oxazepam in case of anxiety or very low moods, because I am prone to self injury.

Now, the reason I stumbled upon this site was because I was looking for personal stories of people who have suffered a crush injury. Last summer, after having a wisdom tooth extraction gone wrong and leading to weeks of pain, and a massive leakage in my student flat causing quite a lot of water damage, I had a truck drive over my foot.

For the full extent of the injury you can visit this link: https://patient.info/forums/discuss/crush-injury-to-foot-looking-for-people-with-a-similar-experience-479654

However, clearly what I am most looking for is some moral support. I need distractions and people around me to not feel too poorly but I have been stuck in bed for what will be 6 weeks on Friday. After that I will hopefully regain some mobility but it has been very hard on me and I can notice my mood slipping.

I am forced to stay with my parents as I cannot do much by myself, and our relationship is not very good, although my parents are under the impression that it is and that I am simply "too sensitive". They also cannot give me the emotional support that I need; when I ask for some, they simply tell me that eventually I will heal and it is getting better already (and while it is getting better compared to what the situation was like initially, I am quite as immobile as I was initially).

To give an example of what my parents are like: When I was in hospital for two weeks, my mother would come sit by my bedside and complain to me about hitting her own little toe against a table... (All my toes were broken and I was in quite some pain at this point).

So I was wondering, do you have any tips on how to deal with depressed and suicidal feelings while being stuck in bed while not being able to attend University, and how to deal with the at times very hostile feelings towards your care takers???

 

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    hi there im sorry to see you having such a lot bother with depression and bpd is your family supportive of you ! i ask because it helps so much to have people round you who understanding or are willing to learn more about how you feel ! youve had so many things happen to you its no wonder you are unwell ! im glad youre seeing your doctor to work out what treatment you need because a lot of people dont always ask for help till things become so bad it takes longer to get the correct treatment please always see your doctor ! and done try to self medicate or come off medicines with out taking advice from your doctor ! god bless you anc take care david
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      Thank you David!

      My parents and brother are not very understanding of my BPD, nor is my grandmother (who I suspect has BPD herself) or my uncles and aunts.

      Because of it I also don't have many friends so my support system is quite weak.

      You are absolutely right in that having support would help a lot. I am also in a transgression from one psychiatrist to another, because the place I used to visit is more specialised in depression, and they can't help me very well because it is so interlinked with my BPD.

      I'll try to stay off meds I don't need, and again, thank you for your message.

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      hi there it so sad to see the lack of support you are getting from your family ! the people are like a extended family on this forum who can and will try and support you ! i wish you the best of health and if you need to post on hear ! david
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