Depression but no one knows

Hi Aron,

I am no Dr. But from what you just revealed ... Yes there is definitely a problem somewhere.

You say you shouldn't feel the way you do because of having a great job, mortgage half paid off etc.

Let's be honest ....most importantly, you need to be honest with yourself . No one cuts themselves, turns off their phone, and is bulemic for no reason.

Search way back. I wish I could help you but you need to face whatever started all this. believe me... I have my share of depression.

You can have all the money in the world but it does not bring happiness.

Maybe deep down you are not as thrilled with your job as you think. Maybe you need to change your profession and settle in one place. Maybe you have stressed you don't realize are causing you such problems. I don't know, but what I do know is you have something going on that you need to address. Because something like this is not going away on its own.

God bless you,

Hugs, Maggie

You're definitely not a fraud. Depression isn't a one size fits all type of thing, so don't think that yours is any less than someone else's. Worldly possessions, and such have no meaning when depression strikes. Have you gone to see a doctor? You do need help, especially because of the cutting. You deserve a happy, and fulfilling life, don't deprive yourself of that.

codeine is a depressent...

I'm not against drugs at all...and I'm not saying you have a problem with drugs...I'm just saying Codiene...has a tendency to cause depression.

Are you on any antidepressent?  Yea, we think we have everything...good job...etc...but those things do not define who weare...you seem like you have to find things that make you feel whole....like hobbies? 

I suffer from chronic pain and depression..because i have a history with alcohol...they will not prescribe me "addictive" drugs like codieneor vicodin for pain (and i don't want them) because like alcohol...they are temporary good pain relievers...but they do not fix the pain for good.

I take a medication called Gabapentin...it REALLY helps with pain..but it is a gradual thing....taken 3x day...non narcotic..(no depressents).

Actually, it kind of puts me in a better mood due to less pain.

I would condsider talking to my Dr. and telling them how I was feeling (depressed)...and see if a change in med or a psychiatrist for an antidepressent would be in order.

I hope you feel better.

First thing you need to do is open up to friends and family about what you have been feeling and why you have shut them out. They wont be at all burdened, and will feel good that you thought they should know. Also, it will make you feel better to open up to them. Talk to a psychiatrist that you feel you are comfy with and be completely honest about your dreams. They may be able to get you on meds that will help with what your feeling.

Why dont you contact to Specialist?

You should definitely talk to your family and I also know you will feel better after seeing a Psychiatrist. You are not alone at all. Get the name of a reputable Psychiatrist and make an appointment. I feel just doing those two things will help you feel better. Addressing it. Remember, you're not alone.

Also....please open up to someone you can trust .

You took the first step by coming on this forum. Talk to someone you can trust.

I lost my sister (2yrs in Sept). I wish she would of reached out to someone . If so, she still may have been here .

If you don't want to reach out for yourself, please consider doing it for your family and friends.

I wish I could give you a hug.

Maggie

Sorry you are feeling so down! I too suffer with anxiety and depression and cannot understand why as I have a great life! I feel I do not know myself anymore for I was a very confident, secure person before all this hit back in April! Hope we both start feeling better!