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i have posted on here before but its been a while.
so the last almost two weeks i had nothing but severe anxiety. it targeted the things i love the most and thats when my intrusive thoughts. my anxiety and the thoughts targeted my boyfriend unfortunately. him and i are together almost three years and he knows how my depression gets. this was new to the point where i was terrified to even lay next to him. i did nothing but cry everyday. he is very good to me and tries to understand what i go through. my thoughts convinced me that he was cheating on me didn't love me then it made me question my feelings as if i was with the right one or not and if i did really love him.
i have been on Buspar for a year and just got an increase about two weeks ago and that was when everything went down hill.
as of this past Wednesday is when i just broke inside. i feel... nothing but empty and im afraid, these depression epsiodes are not new for me but this feeling is new to me and i am scared. my boyfriend and my mom do not know what to do but just them being there mean a lot.
has anyone else had something similar?
anything would help
i always had depression since i was 13 and i am now 20. had a bad past with ex boyfriends and all but now that i found a good guy its like my head is in protection mode
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