Depressive state
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hi...
i have posted on here before but its been a while.
so the last almost two weeks i had nothing but severe anxiety. it targeted the things i love the most and thats when my intrusive thoughts. my anxiety and the thoughts targeted my boyfriend unfortunately. him and i are together almost three years and he knows how my depression gets. this was new to the point where i was terrified to even lay next to him. i did nothing but cry everyday. he is very good to me and tries to understand what i go through. my thoughts convinced me that he was cheating on me didn't love me then it made me question my feelings as if i was with the right one or not and if i did really love him.
i have been on Buspar for a year and just got an increase about two weeks ago and that was when everything went down hill.
as of this past Wednesday is when i just broke inside. i feel... nothing but empty and im afraid, these depression epsiodes are not new for me but this feeling is new to me and i am scared. my boyfriend and my mom do not know what to do but just them being there mean a lot.
has anyone else had something similar?
anything would help
i always had depression since i was 13 and i am now 20. had a bad past with ex boyfriends and all but now that i found a good guy its like my head is in protection mode
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Guest alana20145
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HI Alana, I was struggling with depression and some anxiety for a while but a few weeks ago I started to take aswhaganda (Ayuerveda supplememt) and it made me feel so much better! i take one capsule (250mg) every morning. You can likely buy in any health food store, I ordered it on line from Swanson (swanson.com), paid US$ 7.99 for a bottle of 60 capsules + postage. Hope it will help.
flikstick alana20145
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Hi Alana,
I hope you've found peace with you anxiety? How are things going? I've been going through what seems to be similar, especially in regards to your partner - it's scaring me so much, I have a psychiatrist appointment in two weeks, which I'm hoping brings relief, I feel so lifeless and helpless. I feel the same about the protection mode, and it feels like I have no control over it.
Looking forward to hearing your update x
alana20145 flikstick
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hello,
sadly i did not get full relief yet but i am getting there. it scares me because i feel like my relationship will fall apart because of my questioning my feelings towards my boyfriend when he does nothing but support me in everything and treat me so good. i hate that it is like this but my childhood was not the best either and neither were my past relationships. i get a good guy and it is like i am in protection mode after almost 3 years together. i have no idea what is going on but my anxiety can get really bad out of no where...