dianepaterson
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hi everyone..
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ses i liked ur story though it made me cry.. i am going through the works at the moment.... tried tens machine again till 530 this morning but i dont know if it works or not or my wants it to..
im feeling very low today, to the point that i wish i wasnt in this world anymore..i suffered from depression for many years on and off and ended up in hosp for a month on one occassion 3 years ago... if u asked me amonth ago do i feel so ill with the depression i would have said no..but im now in a panic because all those feelings are back and im really scared.. which means the pain is unbearable, im sitting here in tears and just hope i wake up tomorrow and my life will be better.. but will it??
hope everyone is feeling better than i do..
luv di x
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lisa-b
Posted
I don't think there is anything to say to that. I hear what you are saying and the truth is I don't have the answers.
I do want you to know I am thinking of you, and truly want you to keep trying and try to get a sleep. I hope things will look better tomorrow. If you feel this bad I do know the best thing is to tell your health care worker as soon as possible the quicker they deal with how you are feeling the better it is.
Take care, Lisa
Squires
Posted
Lisa is right in what she says talk to someone soon about how your are feeling don't leave it. We are all here for you. We can try and support each other as best as we can. If we all could reach out and give you a big hug we would :lol:
Try and get some rest and if you want to come back on and talk we will all be here to listen to you.
Love Tess x x
paddy
Posted
I understand just how you are feeling! I`ve had depression on and off for over 15 yrs and changed medication many times. I have a very good health centre and they support me as well as they possibly can.
I can talk to you about it now because I`m just coming out of a very bad six months of depression, but when I am at my worst for some reason I find it very hard to ask for help and talk to anyone. I have learnt the signs over the years which indicate to me that I am going down that dark road again but I seem helpless to either accept that or ask my GP for help. There just seems to be a point at which I decide to go and see him and get the necessary help! I know that if I could do that much earlier on I probably wouldn`t be as bad but Its just as if something inside won`t let me. I know this sounds strange to other people but you might realise what I mean DI, and that you are not alone.
The one thing that I do do is keep a diary not just about my depression but of any other things that are happening and the amount and type of pain etc. There then comes a point when I am recovering when I realise that I have not written anything for a few days and I know I am recovering then.
Everyone is different Di and everyone experiences depression in different ways, so none of the things that help me might not help you, but you may find your little indicators and use them the way I use mine!
Sorry everyone for waffling on but I just hope talking about these things helps us all at times.
Take care Di and everyone
Love Linda
Squires
Posted
How are you today Di! I cannot understand what you are going through with your depression as luckily never been there. :cry: I think only someone like Linda and others who have experienced depression can fully understand what you are going through. I can only offer my support on here as a friend and someone who will listen.
What Linda saids makes sense about keeping a diary! You will find someway to put it into practice.
Hi Linda how is your pain now. We had a good suuny and dry day yesterday so made me feel better. Still got horrible pains in back and legs though. Don't normally have to get up and take pain tablets, but have for the last couple of nights. :cry:
Well keep going everyone! :lol:
Love Tess x x
Squires
Posted
How are you all today. Still got lots of aches and pains in my legs today.
Had to get up again early this morning to take some pain relief as was really bad. Hope you all are in not too much pain.
Been busy loading our motor home up with my sons belongings to take up to Preston for him. Also we need to take our stuff as staying away for three days. Well hopefully have a bit of rest after we help him move in on Saturday. He is coming up to Preston on the train on Saturday morning.
My right wrist is hurting also tonight as I type.
Got first physio in morning let you know how it goes lol :roll:
Well take care everyone and catch up when I get back on Monday. :lol:
Love Tess x x
dianepaterson
Posted
linda if u understand depression then i know u will know where im coming from....well i felt really low all day and so fatigued at 6pm i could have just went to bed... i pushed myself to keep busy and to be honest im sitting here now feeling alot better.. i have been going through alot lately especially after my dear friend died 3 weeks ago ,so i was thinking about it today and trying to sort everything in my mind.. im worried about going to the rhymatoligist on the 19th as if they dont believe me i think it will just finish me off.. im the sort of person is that i need people to realise my symtoms are real i feel with the depression that the doc put every single thing down to the depression....
i really hope u all are feeling ok and i feel talking to u all is my life line... take care have a good weekend and i will talk with u all soon xxx
SES
Posted
I am so sorry I did not reply to you, but I have had so much pain in my shoulders and arms and hands I have not been with it :oops: so somehow I have missed this link :?:
[color=blue:5fa707ee27]Firstly Di, you are not alone as we all know what you are going through as we all understand you
but the only thing is like I had written in my story which I had sent you, there are so called professionals out there and they do not like the word\"fibromyalgia\" as I think some Rhuematologists think we are malingerer's and scroungers or something as one of my members of my group saw the same So called Rhuemo and she acted the same to her as this \"so called professional\" treated me :evil: so you are not alone hun if these patronizing doctors speak to you as though you are something that is walked in from outside, ignore it, request for another opinion, after all Fibromyalgia is only really diagnosed after 6 months of pain and suffering and after all blood tests are ruled out for other ailments....... and then they are suppose to check you for the tender points ........ I am not saying you will be treated the same, hopefully not!!!! but just giving you the knowledge will help you prepare I hope, if they do :?: and if he/she does treat you awful, well there is always a second opinion............. the point is hun, this Rhuemo said I had back ache and X-rays show I have Osteo-arthritis in my hip and now I have cervical rib which can cause numbness in my arms and hands along with nerve pain :twisted: so again what I am saying THEY CAN BE WRONG WITH THEIR DIAGNOSIS :evil: It took a while for me........as you read before the pain specialist diagnosed me and the fact was I was seeing him for my degenerative discs :roll: [/color:5fa707ee27]
I do hope everyone is ok too and what one of our patient members says is \"knowledge is Power\" so research it as I did and so in the end I knew more about this dreadful illness than my own doctor .........be confident and show him/her your diary of ailments and you will get there in the end to get recognition :cheers:
Gentle hugs to everyone xxxx