didn't take my tablet this morning

Hi Krazykat

I think you will feel worse if you don't take it. I'm hoping one day that all the horrible side effects will lessen. That said i am also tempted to give it a rest. Have had a horrible headache for 5 days now that makes you feel sick in waves. Someone up there (or down there) is having a good laugh at my expense!!

The trouble is, what's the alternative. The imbalanced chemicals in the brain aren't going to heal themselves..damn them.

Don't give up just yet. You really need to be strong. Something i'm not.

I am not going to put myself in the situation of social events, even now at nearly 7 weeks. My friends know of the depression but as none of them have ever had it, i don't know how they would cope if i had a blubbing fit (which is quite likely).

It's like your life is on hold. Good times are ahead of us i'm sure.

You just have to believe it and boy thats hard i know.

Well enough rambling from me.

Good luck and please keep taking them. x

Hey KK,

I totally feel for you - sounds like you've been having a nightmare with Flu....but you should try and stick with it. Im at week 14 and have only missed one tab but feel a lot better than I did 14 weeks ago.

We're all here for you buddy, trust me without this site id be in a much worse place. I find it so good to talk to you guys as you can relate to some of the problems im having and vice versa. Hav you thought about going back to see the doctor and telling them about your recent feelings?

The panic attacks you are having sound similar to my own, i could be anywhere and feel i was going to be sick/faint/collapse but it was purely in my head and nothing bad ever happened. I cant remember if you asid you had started/were starting counselling? I found this helped me so much as they have techniques to help you realise whats happening in your head while these attacks are going on.

The side effects are dreadful, ill agree, but the end result is certainly worth the unpleasant sensations at the beginning. The only thing that is still killing me is the sleep deprivation - without prescribed tabs i rarely get more than 4 hours a night.

Hope you're ok and would be cool to hear from you soon,

KK - stick with it even though you feel too sick to take another tablet just try. keeps drinking lots of water and try to stay in bed and sleep through it or watch tv to take your mind of the sickness a little. Its just this first bit you need to get through then you will feel so much when you dont feel sick anymore trust us we have all gone through it.

Keep strong ok we are all here for support!

nicki

thanks guys, I still haven't taken it yet though, I don't want to feel shit any more aaaagggghhh. Feel trapped in my own body?

I'm not having counselling but was offered cbt, supposed to be seeing my gp on the 16th, I could call him before then but I doubt he can fit me in as he is fully booked up before his holiday lucky git!!

Humming aand haring?!! should I take another one? I just don't know what to do, its like I was having no side effects really then got hit with a few in one clump around day 7-8?

It sounds like some of you several weeks in are still getting real probs with sleep? The best way I could describe it is like your body is physically exhausted but my eyes won't shut and I don't feel like i'm thinking bout anything but my head won't switch off I would say I'm getting about 2 hours broken sleep a nite and I can't even seem to nap in the day, driving me crazy.

My mum was on anti depressants years ago but she never remembers any bad side effects like you get on flu?

Sweet dreams xx

Go on girl you know you should really. The first few weeks are really nasty. You will still get ups and downs and i think you were very brave socialising so early in your treatment.

Persevere, it WILL be worth it.

Hope you get some shut eye tonight, talking of which i think i should go to bed and try myself.

Good luck, best wishes and go for it.

x :roll:

Morning all,

Seems Flu is kicking our @r$es at the moment....i no mines certainly being whooped at present. Sleep is a rare luxury and still going to work as normal isnt great when ive had just about 4/5 hours of broken sleep. I hoped that at week 14 I would be in a good pattern but similarly to KK, my head just wont switch off and I lay there thinking about everything and anything til im so exhausted i pass out and wake up just hours later.

Please tell me others are/have experienced this as its making me so low again. Might have to go to the docs and up the dosage. Been on 20Mg since 10th Nov and thought it was really helping but ive plateau'd somewhat now and want to get better like every one else.

Sorry to moan first thing in the morning but I just need a pick-me-up moan before i steam off the rails!

Thanks for listening,

Blooming hell everyones having such a hard time.

Been on flu for ten months and i'd say for the last 6 or 7 i've never slept better. When i first went on flu i'd just lie in bed with my mind racing, god knows what i was thinking about but the more i tried to stop thinking the more i was thinking, if that makes sense. I ended up sitting downstairs and falling asleep on the settee. I used to dread bed times as i knew i'd just be laying there for ages resenting my husband for being in a lovely sleep. I tried all sorts to help me sleep but i really do think its just time. As i said i do sleep well now but if i wake in the night i often stay awake for an hour or so. I think you just have to stick with it, it will get better.

KK, stick with it, you will feel better. It is so early for you. Don't give up. The side effects do lessen but at the time you feel they won't.

I wish i didn't feel so numb, it was the 3rd anniversary of my dads death on Sunday, last year i cried, this year, nothing, i know flu has taken away alot of my emotions. Will they come back? Is anyone else like this?

Hope you're all having an okay day.

Take care

Sam x

Hey Sam,

Things have been better to say the least...just start picking up and then drop back down like a ton of bricks. This Flu is horrid stuff, back to docs monday - might see if 40Mg will be better.

I havent slept naturally for more than 6 hours since xmas, and that was once! Im on zopiclone to help my mind switch off but dont wanna get reliant on them so take then once every 2/3 days.

The loss of emotions sounds awful, im already emotionally numb without losing it moreso. I hope they come back, ive wanted to cry so many times but jsut either held back or the feeling has gone. Ive cried once whilst on Flu and that was when i told my parents about it. Im so out of touch with my emotions already that i find it hard to express myself seriously. Oh well, still trying to be optimistic.....I WILL GET THRU THIS!!

Hope every one else is doing ok?

Hi HT,

Since starting 40mg 5 days ago I am feeling better, if a little numb, but thats to be expected right?> I occasionally feel like I want to cry but I cant, like it being held back, strange sensation, but better than how I was feeling before! I feel like I can get on with things. Sleeping pattern is not great, broken sleep most nights right now but hoping that will level out eventually.

can some one pleeeasee give me some really positive stuff about flu, cos I don't mean to sound cynical but no emotion, no crying, no laughter, no sleep, dry mouth, headaches, panic attacks, this flu stuff seems to be giving most people a real rough ride, maybe it's not the best thing for me?? or some of you?? I haven't heard many success stories? how many months down the line should it be?? I wasn't expecting a quick fix, but?

I still haven't taken a tablet, I don't want to not be able to cry if I feel like letting out some emotion, isn't that normal??!!

I just ate a load of pick and mix and choc last nite that gave me a lil buzz!

I really hope that you are all feeling alot better today, and hopefully slept last nite, I did for some bizarre reason

love kk xx

Hi KK,

Sorry but there is no instant recovery.

I am feeling good, on top of things, and have felt like this for two days now. Its great! I am at 3 and a half months on Flu (about 15 weeks) and its doing me good now, but this was after changing to 40mg on Thursday last week.

You really have to keep taking it and not give up. I really didnt have that much of a tough ride with the side effects, it treats everyone differently.

I hope it gets better soon.

Hi All, KK i've been on flu for 27 days now and although i feel crap most mornings the day gets better as i go along. Went to docs for a chat and to see if she though i should up to 40mg a day she said no way i was doing fine. Broken sleep from about 10 till 5 then the mind races. I find that if i go on along walk,4 hrs today, i sleep better at night. I am not at work and the doctor said not to rush it but i feel i want to get back (when i'm feeling okay)I dont drink coffee or tea anymore and no alcohol since jan 3. I also take vit B plus. To summerise i think you have to stick at this and try and do everything you can to help yourselve (i know thats easier said than done i feel like giving up sometimes) but we must not let this bastard thing win.

Keep at it all good luck

KK and everyone else

It does seem that no one has a success story but i know that without flu i'd be an utter mess. Its not until you feel 'normal' that you realise it is working. It does take some months to work. Flu doesn't work on its own you have to work with it, stay positive. I guess flu doesn't take the problem away it just helps you deal with it.

I've been diagnosed now with an underactive thyroid, saw the specialist yesterday, when i last saw him about 9 months ago i was at my worse, no life in me, shaking, feeling sick, headaches and 1/2 a stone lighter. He was pleased to see how well i looked and said i'd obviously found the right drug. So i guess this is a success story but with an occassional blip (bad day). Today i've taken thyroxin, so i'm now on two drugs, hope they don't clash and i don't get side effects from it.

Hope everyone's feeling better today

Sam x