Difficulty coping with everyday.
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Hi Everyone,
I have just experienced what I think is my first "anxiety" problem. About 6 days ago I became very anxious at work and didn't like the way I felt. It didn't feel "normal" and just wished I could go to sleep and wake up feeling "good" again. I work away from my home and had to endure a 5 hour flight to get back to my house. This flight was the most difficult thing I have ever done. Minutes felt like hours and I had to constantly do things to distract me form losing the plot. I didn't feel like I was going have a panic attack but it was so removed to what I would call feeling "normal" I feared I would never come back to my version of safe reality. I am in a country with not so good medical services and when I went to a GP he just prescibed Xanax and sent me on my way. I took the Xanax (0.5mg twice a day) but didn't really feel that much better. It made me less on edge but certainly didn't completely take the feelings away. The only way I can describe my feelings is that its like being on a "bad trip" that never stops. I don't take drugs or drink heavily.
I don't know if I have axniety or depression on something else. I'm really scared and need some answers. I have an appointment with a psychologist in the next few days who hopefully has some more answers.
Can anyone offer some advice on how to "keep my thoughts together"
Thanks
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kevin66749 craig24371
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I was flying an aircraft on a flight to deliver food aid to a mountain community in a very dangerous part or the world. At the last minute I had to abondon my attempt at landing and and came very close to the houses at the end of the runway. At no point did I think I would "die" but it was a very stressful event. My feelings didn't start straight after that but that is the only realy stressful thing that had happened to me in the previous week. My job is inherently dangerous but until now I have had no problems. I have been doing this particular job for 18 months. Is it possible to have "delayed reactions" to these sorts of events?
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I think I have come on to this forum to get reassuarance that my constant fear won't last for ever and my "grip" on reality will return. The other thing is that 99% of people on forums like this describe the symptoms taking "months" to materialise where mine appeared overnight.
Lastly, is Xanax supposed to give me euphoria or is it just to level you out?
Cheers
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I haven't been on the drug ur on but like all meds it just takes the edge off its not the answer its only you that can sort this
craig24371 crazyfrog
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I am out of the situation now and with my family. They are a bit worried because they don't have any idea what is happening to me either. I am researching the hell out of the internet but nothing seems to fit exactly my symptoms.
Trying to explain to my GP that I was feeling like I was having a "bad trip" didn't really help (is that considered anxiety or paranoia?).I don't take drugs and I live in an almost drug free country so I don't think he understood the constant fear I had.
Do you know of anyone who has constant fear or is it supposed to come and go?
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This I know is unrealistic and its probably going to be a long road. Its funny the best I have felt in the last week is the 2 hours I have spent typing on this fourm! I have booked a psych appointment for this Saturday so I hope they can shed a little more light on my dilemma.
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I understand the my problems are miniscule compared to the dibilitating condtions some people on this forum have endured for years.
What freaked me was all the info I could find said that the panic or anxiety I was feeling was supposed to subside at some point bringing me back to "reality" even if it was only for short periods. My anxiety/panic didn't let up for days and that was what I didn't understand.
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Cheers