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I've been at work for 8 months but I've had another relapse with depression. I'm a manic depressive sufferer and have been on/off for 7 years - 2007,2008,2011,2012,2013 and 2014. I've been through the stages of where I've self harmed with alcohol, drugs and razorblades but now I'm in the rut type of stage where I just can't get out of bed and I'm being nausea and really have low mood in regards to things.I always cry everyday for no reason and I have this thoughts in my head where I want to go back to self mutilation. I started work at the company on a department which was supportive and I could easily talk to others with depression and they used to support me if I have episode but now they moved me onto a different department. This different department has supervisors who never been managers before this department and they're making my life a living hell. I achieve targets but if I have a episode with a piece of work I.e. for being out of my seat for 30 seconds asking a question to a supervisor - I get a disciplinary. I get sarcastic remarks of supervisors and they undermine me constantly even though we probably know more than them. Now, I went to the doctors this morning to go and see and all they were like 'oh you should retrain (with what money may I add) and blaming it all on me. I want to get out of this rut but I don't know how to do it I'm so stressed out, I have a house to run as well. The worst thing is that they know I suffer from severe/manic depression and I said I wanted to move department to something to help me and work flexible hours but they said no I really am stuck
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