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I've been on Celexa 3 1/2 months. Also on 5mg Valium 3x a day and 25 mg Torazodone at night. I started out on 5mg cit and slowing moved up to 30mg. That wasn't working so doctor upped me to 40mg.
I feel like I am getting better. I still have the butterfly feeling of anxiety in the chest but it is tolerable and the depression is just about gone.
But I have this constant weird scared feeling and thoughts that I am going to CRASH and be right back as bad as I was, or worse, like I might go crazy or something!!!! And I was BAD before!!!!!! I have PTSD and my son passed in October, he was 21 and took his own beautiful self from this earth.
I know all about how bad Valium is so please don't tell me any horror stories as it will make me so much worse. I am going to do a slow taper off the Valium once I am stable. I want to do it now but my doctor advices against it because he thinks at this time it will make things worse. He is willing to go as slow as I want.
I am also so scared to go through that but I am hoping as long as I don't go fast, I should be ok.
Sadly I was on all these meds 3 years ago. I use to have a few drinks every night, didn't get drunk, didn't effect my family life, my mood never changed. I just did it out of habit. I quit one night after 10 years of doing it and went through Alcohol withdrawl which gave me PAWS Post Acute Alcohol Withdrawal Syndrome and also triggered my PTSD from the jobs I had, military and corrections. So they put me on all the meds above. I tapered off all of them and was perfectly normal living a happy life until my beautiful son passed.
I just don't want to go through any more pain than I have too. And my fear is I'm somehow going to hit rock bottom again now that I feel good.
Sorry for the long post! It is much longer than I thought it was going to be.
God Bless You All!!!!
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