DON'T CARE !!!!!!!

I'm sorry that you feel like this. What are you so angry about? and why have you been in isolation. That must be your choice, there are plenty of people who you could talk to, the Samaritans to start with. Then there's also your GP, community physciatric nurse, community mental health team. Why do you hate yourself so much. If you don't want to talk to any of the people I've suggested, then write here, I will listen and try and help you.

go your doctors get more help of them

i was like that i try do that all of october i was in hospital for a full month and when i come out i was abit better but i have got my son who come in every day i was so happy

Hi Remember why do you hate yourself?   What is it about you that you hate so much?   Think abour it before replying please.  x

Hello, I'm so sorry that you are going through so much anger.  My depression started out as anger, too, and my doctor told me it was called "agitated depression"...It can be just as bad or worse than the "sadness depression"...I started taking antidepressants and antianxiety meds and I got much better in about two weeks.  I am still on the same meds 30 yrs. later, and I still have small bouts of depression, but I am so thankful for an understanding doctor who knows how to prescribe just the right meds...Hope this helps, sweetie...Please don't ever think of taking your own life.  That is a permanent solution to a temporary problem...HUGS.

Hi, I agree with all the other posts...please get help, I felt as lost as you do at the present time, but medication helped be enormously...you must talk openly and honestly to your GP...the Samaritans are also amazing...I truly wish you well....big hugs to you....Deirdre xxx

Hi buddy,

Have you been watching those violent videos again? We can all feel your pain and anger and I can tell you from the heart that we do ALL care about you. Although we can't be with you physically and put an arm round your shoulder, we all wish we could do just that, because we've all known that feeling at some point in our battle with this monster. You may not have friends that you can see, but perhaps you will be able to believe and accept that you have many friends on this forum whom you can feel with your heart. I'm not just typing these words - I really do mean them. I won't try to pretend that your life will improve overnight; God knows it takes time, sometimes to the point of utter frustration. Sometimes it's more than we can bear and I realise that you are at this point now. I have struggled with suicidal depression for a year now and I don't know whether it will get the better of me one day. I hope not as there are still a few small things that I can squeeze some enjoyment out of. And I've found a real connection to many people on this forum. Unlike the people in my life who call themselves family and friends, the people here online understand what I think and feel. They've walked in my shoes and felt the same pain I have. They have grasped at hope when it's seemed like a wisp of smoke in the breeze. I've lived without hope for weeks on end but I have rediscovered it, often through the kindness of someone's gentle words or a note or a compliment. Something so little can have a powerful effect when your soul is parched. I hate myself too - lived with self-loathing the more I've seen my life slowly fall apart. Lost my job, lost my wife & best friend, lost another job (I know - what a butterfingers!) Yes, what stops me doing the deed is the thought of failing, the fear of pain, and the doubt that I may be going to an eternity of something that would make my life right now seem like a paradise. I can't be certain, so better the devil you know ;-)

You are not alone, although that's how you feel. You can't see us but we do exist and we want to help you get through this. When you have nothing else, you will always have a connection to others who want to help you. Please don't deny us this chance. I know you don't care and feeling any emotion is hell right now. But we are here for you. We won't give up on you buddy - please don't give up on yourself.

Always your comrade in arms, Digsby.