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I am 44 and have been recently been told I am menopausal (not officially for a year of no periods) and I am feeling quite overwhelmed by everything that is shifting about.
For the past year I was having what I now know were premenopausal symptoms - not feeling rested after sleep, anxiety levels through the rood for no particular reason, skin changes (dry, wrinkles, reactive, greasy then not etc) Feeling hot and heat and redness in my face, not typical hot flushes with sweat. Intermittant dry eye and feeling hot then cold.
All of these things have calmed down for the moment and I have missed my first period and it feels very strange. I have never missed a period and never been pregnant.
I have felt weak in my muscles at times and overwhelming tiredness, then it will go away, I do feel a bit flat/depressed as well, I was not ready for this change and haven't had children, so I think it's taking me a while to accept. I haven't much of an appetite because of the stress of this news.
The thing I am most upset about right now is that my breasts have changed, I have read that this happens, the fibrous tissue turns to fat (along with everything else as far as I know ). They are completely soft and feel smaller because of it - I have tried to just go with the flow of all this, but really, this seems so unfair and a change I wasn't really expecting. Gradual yes, but maybe I didn't notice before - my breasts were feeling bigger no so long ago, with my cycles - do they just stop feeling 'alive' when the cycles stop?!
I feel like an adolescent asking all this - but really I had no idea about all the areas of the body that change. I only heard it was hot flashes and changing periods - neither of which I have had.
Feeling really upset and quite annoyed - but I can't change it.
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