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I would welcome any advice from your ladies. This is my first time posting int his forum. I just went 40 in October last year and had been suffering from severe anxiety since February last year (not the first time) and was put on Citalopram. After the anxiety started dying down and I paid attention to my body I realised my periods had changed dramatically, swinging from happening every 16 days for a few months to then 5 or 6 weekly for a few months and then back again. During a routine visit to my GP we talked about this and I mentioned my mother had gone through the menopause by the time she was 43 and she agreed with me that I was probably entering into the menopause (being peri menopausal).
I have some terrible symptoms such as flatulance, really painful bloating, sweats during the night etc but my main issue really is the mood swings. Especially during the months when I'm having a period every 16 days like now I really struggle. It seems like I'm Jekyll and Hyde from week to week. The usual PMT issues which I've always had, tearful, angry, depressed, anxiety etc but what is really disturbing me the most is that for the last 9 months it's not just the moods but my whole attitude to my life changes. This includes thinking badly of my oldest child and my husband, the oldest being 20 years old. I have (in my head) left my husband many times, I feel my heart sink when he comes home from work, I'm imagining all sorts of things about him, he doesn't care etc etc and I'm terrified I'm going to do something stupid like leave him and regret it. The strength of these feelings are overpowering. The thing is I KNOW I love him and he's a good man and treats me well. We get on just fine when I don't feel like this and I know I'm bloody hard work at the moment. I have tried talking to him about all of this but bless him he's not exactly the most empathetic of people and I feel it goes in one ear and out the other. When I do feel bad I'm telling him things like he isn't making enough time for me, that I can't carry on with this feeling the way I do and the next week I feel different.
Is there any way to feel better about this? I'm usually such a self confident, happy person, grateful for what I have etc but this is ruining my life. Sorry for the over dramatics but that's how I feel. Advice would be really appreciated.
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