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Hi all
I would welcome any advice from your ladies. This is my first time posting int his forum. I just went 40 in October last year and had been suffering from severe anxiety since February last year (not the first time) and was put on Citalopram. After the anxiety started dying down and I paid attention to my body I realised my periods had changed dramatically, swinging from happening every 16 days for a few months to then 5 or 6 weekly for a few months and then back again. During a routine visit to my GP we talked about this and I mentioned my mother had gone through the menopause by the time she was 43 and she agreed with me that I was probably entering into the menopause (being peri menopausal).
I have some terrible symptoms such as flatulance, really painful bloating, sweats during the night etc but my main issue really is the mood swings. Especially during the months when I'm having a period every 16 days like now I really struggle. It seems like I'm Jekyll and Hyde from week to week. The usual PMT issues which I've always had, tearful, angry, depressed, anxiety etc but what is really disturbing me the most is that for the last 9 months it's not just the moods but my whole attitude to my life changes. This includes thinking badly of my oldest child and my husband, the oldest being 20 years old. I have (in my head) left my husband many times, I feel my heart sink when he comes home from work, I'm imagining all sorts of things about him, he doesn't care etc etc and I'm terrified I'm going to do something stupid like leave him and regret it. The strength of these feelings are overpowering. The thing is I KNOW I love him and he's a good man and treats me well. We get on just fine when I don't feel like this and I know I'm bloody hard work at the moment. I have tried talking to him about all of this but bless him he's not exactly the most empathetic of people and I feel it goes in one ear and out the other. When I do feel bad I'm telling him things like he isn't making enough time for me, that I can't carry on with this feeling the way I do and the next week I feel different.
Is there any way to feel better about this? I'm usually such a self confident, happy person, grateful for what I have etc but this is ruining my life. Sorry for the over dramatics but that's how I feel. Advice would be really appreciated.
Louise xxx
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annieschaefer louise1974
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I believe these thoughts (I have them also and I too have a nice, very understanding husband for the life of me can't figure why HE stays, when at times I'm hoping he'll move on.....and leave me be) as well.
Lately I have noticed them more so as I've gone since December without a cycle (not getting too excited as this has happened before only to have them return) and maybe it's the bouncing hormones that makes me have all kinds of idiotic thoughts. I love my husband......is it like when we first met and couldn't get enough of each other? No, it's the stable type and maybe that's what the heck is wrong with me. Apparently I want to feel young again.....because this nonsense is sure making me feel so old. Who knows? But like you, I don't want to do anything dumb, as I know there is no one better and there's really nothing wrong other than missing that initial "high" of falling in love. If anyone else understands it better I sure would like to know. I feel silly feeling this way, but glad to know I'm not alone and again, looking forward to getting my old self back soon.
Annie xxxx
louise1974 annieschaefer
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Thanks for your reply and no you are not on your own missing the initial high from a relationship, I think that's probably quite common and something we all have from time to time we just don't admit to it. God I would LOVE to feel young again and wildly in love. My oldest daugther is 20 and I have watched her twice in the last 2 years go through this, she is 2 months into a new relationship and over the moon grrrr.
NonnieDD louise1974
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I have foud out in this past year that my thoughts and anxiety is very bad just before and during a period. last night was one of those nights where i couldn't get my thoughts under control and my anxiety went thrue the roof. so this morning i did a bid of reading and to see how the ladies is doing on the forum. i am very glad i did because i thought i am the only one that struggle with intrusive thoughts.
all i can say is that it will get better. everyn time i feel so bad i just tell myself that anti menna is playing with me again. most of the times it works.
have a lovely day and know you are not alone.
louise1974 NonnieDD
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susan21149 louise1974
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You are probably in menopause because my moods are like that too
Somedays I get angery and then there are days I just want to cry and do nothing at all
But things will get better
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