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as some of you know i post about sucide, and i thank you all for your support you give, i knws its the way out of this physical existence n seams appealling ( grass is greaner other side )
i hav no close family, as they dont appreciate my personal lifestyle, they cause me grief, i cut them out of my life, for the sanity of everyone, 2 past famiily members hav passed on, both by suicide, my dad n grandad, they encouraged me to live my lifestyle of which i did, an i feel it ended a long time ago, my goals were achieved n i cba any more, as history is repeating itself, nothing new, everything has always been f**ked up,
hav had many nice gf's of which its still nice were in touch occasionally on fb, settling down was never my thing, waiting 4 the world to destruct or sumfin, now im 4 deccades old, still physically fit n healthy ( except what i believe 2 b demons urging me on 2 join my dad ) i dont see no hope in this government of britian, an their never will be a " fair system " so i just cant be bothered to go on, i'm blessed i dont have dependants,
when i go, wud ideally like 2 jus die in my sleep,preferably in a mortuary, get culled off n allow euthanasia or with a note on my bedroom door to say i done it, profesionals only pls enter, hav thoughts of sum obscure methods to cut off my life instantly, but unable to ensure my body will be found,
or i cud cut these thoughts move on, n start planning a possitive life, its very lonely an will continue to be, im creative in many ways, i have a 20+yr working history, another reason y i cant b f**ked n e more, as i dont have time nor money to explore my talents i believe i have,
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