Endgame: Get busy living or self destruct
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as some of you know i post about sucide, and i thank you all for your support you give, i knws its the way out of this physical existence n seams appealling ( grass is greaner other side )
i hav no close family, as they dont appreciate my personal lifestyle, they cause me grief, i cut them out of my life, for the sanity of everyone, 2 past famiily members hav passed on, both by suicide, my dad n grandad, they encouraged me to live my lifestyle of which i did, an i feel it ended a long time ago, my goals were achieved n i cba any more, as history is repeating itself, nothing new, everything has always been f**ked up,
hav had many nice gf's of which its still nice were in touch occasionally on fb, settling down was never my thing, waiting 4 the world to destruct or sumfin, now im 4 deccades old, still physically fit n healthy ( except what i believe 2 b demons urging me on 2 join my dad ) i dont see no hope in this government of britian, an their never will be a " fair system " so i just cant be bothered to go on, i'm blessed i dont have dependants,
when i go, wud ideally like 2 jus die in my sleep,preferably in a mortuary, get culled off n allow euthanasia or with a note on my bedroom door to say i done it, profesionals only pls enter, hav thoughts of sum obscure methods to cut off my life instantly, but unable to ensure my body will be found,
or i cud cut these thoughts move on, n start planning a possitive life, its very lonely an will continue to be, im creative in many ways, i have a 20+yr working history, another reason y i cant b f**ked n e more, as i dont have time nor money to explore my talents i believe i have,
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peter2824 michael98615
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I would like to hear from you regarding your internal feelings/emotions verses your external feelings/emotions. Quite simple internal feelings/emotions are about what is going on inside your body, expand that please. External feelings are the opposite its what you feel about the world around you. That way you can focus on reality and not on self destruction. Come on Michael there are some of us out here that are empathic to your situation. Been there, nearly did it and nearly wrote a book about it. Plus have been in many places I wish I hadn't been. So I have had a hard life too. Keep on talking, the more talking you do the better we understand you and your problems and can learn from you. Thanks Peter
Mummy-to-skylar michael98615
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Mate there are loads of positive things about live and you my friend are one of them!
MSG me on here or if you haven't by Friday I will msg you!
Please take care 😊
Kate 🐞
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nick34171 michael98615
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gwen1953 michael98615
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wheels michael98615
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Hopefully gwen1953 won't mind me answering your question. I'm sure she'll also respond in time.
The smaratians have a phone line where the people who answer are completely non-judgemental. Your religious beliefs are your own, they honestly have never judged me for my beliefs when I have spoken to them in the past.
The phone line is answered by trained staff who I believe are mostly volunteers, and whilst you are very unlikely to get the same person twice, this does mean that you get the advice and support of all of the people who you speak to when you call them, if you have a talent which you would like to explore but haven't been able to for any reason at all, then they will try to help you look at the options for exploring that talent.
They will try to help you talk through anything you want to discuss in as a non-judgemental way as possible.
When I have been at my lowest, I have rung them. They have made me feel as if I can carry on and can get some of the help I needed at that moment in time to survive for a few more days.
Their phone number is 08457 90 90 90 or you can email them at jo@samaritians.co.uk. You do not have to be suicidal to phone them, they will talk with you about anything you want to talk about. I once spent an entire evening on the phone to them talking about a person who I had broken up with because they had been sleeping with other men and at the time I was extremely heart broken about it, but was never suicidal, I just didn't have a way forward that I could see at the time.
Having that impartical external viewpoint can help sometimes. The calls only cost 2p per minute plus the access charge set by your telephone provider.
I sound like an advert for the samaritians, I do not work there, I am literally just someone who has used their phone line a number of times over the years, and think that in your case, you may have a lot to gain from having someone impartial to talk to.
I hope this helps. I really really do.