Everything has gotten so much worse
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since the last time i posted everything has gotten so much worse. i have herpes all over my body. multiple doctors have told me its normal skin or that is chronic folliculitus. then why is every single person around me getting it too. every one i work with has it now. my medication doesnt even help anymore because i get OB in the genital region when before i wouldnt when taking the medication. i dont know what to do anymore. i am terrified of my future. i drink every single day even at work. i cant handle this stress anymore i am losing it. every time i see a new pimple pop up on somebodys face or hear them constantly scratching their head i die a little more inside each time. i have to go to the bathroom to pull myself together so i dont break down and cry. i dont even know the amount of people it has spread to. im losing it today i just saw a pic of my cousins newborn and he had small blisters all over his eyes. i hugged her a few months back at a family party and my mom has visted her many times since which my mom has it too. yeah not just work but my fg family too. so i look at my cousins recent pics and she has pimple scars near her mouth which is where everyone is mainly getting them including me which is how i know. like did i fg do that to the baby. is that my fault. i feel like a piece of s**t dirt bag. i dont know why doctors dont believe me when i say its herpes all over my body.. im at the end of my rope..
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Guest sarahsarah
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...... I feel so awful that you seriously think you are giving herpes to people just by hugging them/ being around then. I can promise you 100% you are not doing that, that is not at ALL how it works. If you seriously have herpes on every part of your body then you would be a medical wonder, because that has never happened before. Also your immune system would not allow that. You get it where it first came in contact/entered your body, then your body builds antibodies that prevent further infection and prevents you from spreading it to a different location. Most new born infants have baby acne commonly around the eyes. If you gave an infant herpes their immune system would not handle it and it would be very very sick and can be fatal. That baby is not it the hospital so its fine, the babies parents would know if something was wrong with their kid.. You are not spreading it like that. It can only be transmitted through raw or sensitive skin. I.e. genitals or mouth. The reason people could get it on other parts of their bodies like their fingers or back is through a break in the skin, like if they have a cut, and it comes in contact with it... and even then it would take a lot of friction and really rubbing the virus into the skin to pass it along... EVERYONE gets pimples, and itches.. if someone doesnt ever get pimples or an itch then they would be a mutant human alien... So no, just because your coworker is scratching or has a pimple does not mean its herpes .. and 50% of people get cold sores already anyway.. You really should see a therapist, and listen to your doctors. I dont mean to belittle your fears but honestly it sounds like you are creating issues in your head that arent even in the realm of reality.. At the very least please talk to your mom about it because you need to be educated on how this virus works
sarahsarah Guest
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if you read my previous post from last year youll see why i feel this way. it started from my ex. i had a blister i didnt know i had and then he went down on me. about 2 weeks later his his ex and kids get sick with flu like symptoms and body aches but arent actually sick. which was my same experience when i first got it. i was the sickest i had ever been but i knew i wasnt "sick" and then he got sick too within the same day and i got sick again too with the same exact feelings or when i first got herpes. its literally everyone around me. people that had absolutely clear faces until i came in the picture. my closest coworker who smokes with me has said multpile times she doesnt understand why she has such bad acne when its never been that bad in her life. shes not the only one to say that too.. im transferring something to people and the fact that you cant see it first hand means you can tell me to see a therapist
sarahsarah
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*cant
xDx91xPi sarahsarah
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Honestly, i dont think you are passing it to people!
please dont think you are either! yes of course it is easy to spread but if you have it genitally how can you be spreading by hugging!
first_77275 sarahsarah
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If this is a serious post, you need to get yourself into therapy ASAP. If you legitimately believe what you've written here, no one here will be able to help you. For others reading, what the OP describes is not real, herpes does not spread in the ways mentioned.