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Help! I dont know what to do. Walked ...rather been trying to get out this flat all weekend..Cant!!!! Got stuck yesterday and ex stood and watched at the window as I gripped onto lampost for over 30 minutes..Could not let go.. Crossing roads, I fi manage I get panic half way through ( thinking Im not giong to make it...then argh...legs tremble and panic sets in ) and then ...I think come on STOP it...I managed to walk to the end of my street today. ex had to take children to school, and I dont know how I am going to coleeect them as earlier I got stuck...Stood in the street, hanging on to a lampost ...couldnt let go Stood for 25 minutes..My house is/was just round the corner, and I couldnt get it together-not one little bit. Cried cliging onto lampost....waited to see if it would go...Please pass....it wouldnt pass. no breathing ..no nice thoughts ...nothing helpes.....I was stuck...I felt like I wanted to be sick , held back as id already made a big enough scene. Ive had to cancel an appointment for the 2nd time round.....I am woried I am never going to be able to wlak again.
Now I am indoors...i really want to go out, but i cant for feear this will happen again and again and again..No one helps, one knows how your going to react or whats wrong ( peole just walk past , unles of curse htey know you ...they just walk past and must think ( waht a weirdo)...I dont know what to do,,I dont htink there is anything physical wrong, and I cant sleep as I cant function andthats making me worse..Ive 2 young lovely children and I cant do anything with them due to this...This is awful....
Too scared to ring the doctors.
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