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I have started to try and fight back I'm booking spa breaks doing everything in my power to get my confidence up getting eyelashes ect done because my anxitey is about eveeything not just health I have it about the way I look everything but health anxiety is killing me the most I have started going places on my own talking to strangers ect .
before I couldn't even walk in the street alone never mind go in a shop on my own I had to have somebody with me constantly now I finally feel I'm getting all of my life back together accept health anxiety this will not go away at all I was cooking tea I caught a glance in the mirror to notice my left eye was all puffy underneath I then got a tight feeling all under my eye and on that side of my face I have a slight headache and my throats achy so my mind goes straight to stroke or brain tumour allergic reaction ect that's it I'm now sat down scared to move at the fact I could drop dead any second !!!
I look at myself and think where have you gone ... I see my old self I feel it I can't actually get back to it which is making me feel depressed I could prick my finger and that's it I have aids !
I'm sick of it and trying my best though when you have tried everything what else can you do .
im not ready to give up juSt yet but I know I will get to that point it isn't the fact I'm just searching for my old self I know my old self still but I have been taken over completly by health anxoety and even worry while I'm on the street a little incase I get knocked down ect I guess it's death anxiety more than anything but it feels there's no way out of worrying about death as it's going to happen any ways but I don't want it too and I can't accept it's going too xx
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