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Im not sure how I've felt today. It's been a funny day. Woke up this morning as normal- generally feeling sad and not wanting to get pit of bed for work. I get to work and feel generally the same. About 2 hours I let out some of how I've been feeling to a colleague and that I've got a doctors appointment to talk about me potentially having depression. I felt fine after that. Completely normal. I was laughing and although i didn't feel as happy as Saturday night i didn't feel sad almost all day . Every now and then I would get self-defeating thoughts but they eventfully passed after about 2 hours. I've felt fine since then, got home from work and I don't actually feel sad or bad or guilty.
I just don't feel like I should even think I'm depressed at this point. I know it has it's ups and downs but I'm not sure. I just feel like I shouldn't be be on here and that there are others 110% worse off than I am and this is probably just a low point in my life, not a proper mental illness. I mean how can I feel normal and fine and be depressed. I now starting to feel bad about feeling like I shouldn't be thinking I'm depressed. I feel like a phoney.
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