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Hi, I am 19 and at the age of 15 I started having anxiety attacks, which got worse because of the confinement. My mental health was deteriorating a lot, I started to feel like I was in a dream, especially when I was very stressed. Today, I've dropped out of high school, I'm agoraphobic, with obsessive compulsive disorder, and generalized anxiety disorder. I haven't been out of the house for a month, I can't do it, I don't have the courage, and I always put it off until tomorrow. I don't do any physical activities, I spend my days in my room. I feel absolutely nothing since a few days, I feel like I am disconnected from myself, empty, slowed down. Two years ago I started to have mood swings, it was something I had never felt before (even being hypersensitive), everything was multiplied by 100, I could feel sadness, joy, anger, in one day, but when I didn't feel these emotions it was just emptiness, nothing. I feel like my life is a roller coaster, every detail can turn my day around so quickly, give in to everything or nothing. I hate it but I have "learned" to live with it, I think I have bpd (this is not a self-diagnosis) but I have been questioning myself for two years, I only mention the mood swings I have here, but if I had to describe all the symptoms it would be very very long. I hope to find a psychologist soon enough to talk about it, but have you ever felt like this ?
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I am very sorry you are going through this. These feelings are very common in people who are struggling. I know what it feels like.
but the good news is there’s lots of help out there!
I think one of the first things you can do is get a complete physical check up if you haven’t had one recently. That’s always a good place to start.
at the same time you can be looking around for a counselor. You can even do it virtually and it works great!
A counselor is important, because whenever you are going through something like this, it’s very difficult to manage on your own and know what to do to feel better. I tried it and kept going in circles and felt even more frustrated.
when you’re with a counselor, you can just pour your heart out and tell him or her everything how you’re feeling etc. they have the experience to know how to help you manage this better.
your sensations or symptoms are very common with high levels of anxiety. I’ve had that myself. But I found that one of the worst things you can do is isolate yourself completely. That’s not good for mental health. Would you be able to take a daily walk, that would be great for you and any exercise will release good hormones in the brain to help you feel a little better.
Start out by doing one thing for yourself every day. Whether it’s going for a little walk or a talking to a friend or family member on the phone, anything that brings a little joy to your self!
One counselor told me to write down everything I am grateful for even if it’s just having a roof over my head, food, etc She said do this daily and read it all over again and again. And keep adding to it. I didn’t think I had much, but when I looked at how many things I was grateful, for I was amazed!
Always remember that things can definitely get much better for you as they did for me. Take one day at a time and try not to overthink things. When we have anxiety, the mind tends to put negative thoughts there. Those thoughts we can let go of. And that’s where your counselor comes in to help you. You could have some depression mixed in there also. Feel free to private message me anytime! Remember to take care of YOU!