Feeling lost and like this isn't getting any easier

my doctor said i was still healing and put me on the anti-virals again, for ten days. it's been 3 and a half weeks since my initial outbreak, and i'm still not quite right. thankfully the pain is gone, i'm just still uncomfortable. but i do feel like i'm slowly getting better. I just didn't think it would take this long.

i've done a lot of research and apparently the first outbreak is the worse, and usually the more outbreaks you have, the less severe and shorter lasting they are, and as time goes on, the amount of recurrences lessens.

You should not feel bad about having this. When I first found out I had it, I was really concerned too. But it's actually not as bad as people make it out to be. Yes it is painful, and people make it seem like this "bad" disease. but really, it's the same virus that causes cold sores, doesn't matter if you have type 1 or 2, either one can show on the lips, genitals, and even the eyes. it's a virus, it spreads.

They says it's incurable, but all they mean by that is it remains dormant in your body. it lives in the spine. it doesn't mean your going to have recurring outbreaks. it's like the chicken pox. once you have the chicken pox, the virus stays in your body but is also dormant, meaning you may or may not get another outbreak of the chicken pox, or shingles.

I hope this helps. It's not the worse thing in the world. You can live with it, it just sucks sometimes, but there are medications to help when you need them. Your definitely not alone. Many people have this virus, whether it be type 1 or 2, it doesn't matter. Another thing I found interesting is that about 80% of people who have herpes don't even know they have it because they are asymptomatic (no symptoms) or they have very mild symptoms. Well, I hope this helped a bit. You can get through it.

Thank you so much, this forum has certainly helped me.

Since posting this I've had a shift in thought towards this disease and truly think it has helped.

I'm have less out breaks, but most of all feeling better about myself which does help the outbreaks from happening so often.

I stopped taking the prescribed medicine and am taking vitamins instead.

I think this topic needs to be talked about more and not have such a massive stigma attached to it, being as common as it is and I never even got informed about it in school. Sigh.

Thank you again for commenting, I wish I had seen it sooner.

I was currley diagnosed with HSV two weeks before my 20th bday. I felt disgusted with myself as well. I felt that no one would ever want to be with me, that my goals of having a husband and family would never happen. But you cant look at it in a negative way. I know easier said then done.. but you will eventually accept it and instead of having all those negative feelings you will come to peace with it. Just because you have HSV does not change your self-value. Who cares what other people think about you. Were all human and we live in a dirty world, litterly. In order for others to accept it you have to accpet it first and be a peace with it. Once you do it will get better. HSV is one of the most common STDs known. 

You said your starting to have them on your legs..which your possibly got from saving.. HSV is contracted through sex, an open wound, or having touched the infection and not cleaning your hands and turning around and touching any mucous membrane. HSV can also be contracted from simply using the bathroom in a public facility. I am currtenly finishing my second year of college.. in which my studies specalize in the diagnosing, treating, ect. of diseases. My recent exam was on Herpies and other stds. If you have any other questions feel free to ask me I will help you as much as possible.