Feeling very low today
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Evening guys,
Hope you don't mind but I just need to have a moan
I was diagnosed with Fibro in May after a year of back and forth to a few GPs with symptoms and not accepting their diagnosis of depression.
Since Oct last year I have been at work just 4 months and for that time I had to reduce my hours from 37 to 16. I have currently been signed off since mid June and am not coping very well at the moment - So far work have been very understanding and accommodating to my needs and I am waiting to start home working, but I was told today that the powers that be are not happy with me doing this on the part time hours but there is no way at the moment I can return to 37 a week (Not yet anyway)
Because I have had to have so much time off it got to the stage where I was having to use my credit cards to compensate my drop in wages and I have been juggling everything (like you do) but have now dropped all the balls as I slip into overlimits on my cards.
I started claiming HB in Jan and despite keeping them up to date each month with my wage slips and situation have managed to accrue £500+ overpayment
I have a PIP f2f assessment next week which I'm dreading, my sick note runs out on Wed, and although my current GP is good, I'm sure she doesn't believe me when I say I don't feel any better - if anything I feel worse since I last spoke to her, but I'm getting anxious about speaking to her (how mad does that sound?)
I am so tired and in a lot of pain and the situation I'm now in is triggering the depression and anxiety which is making my IBS symptoms worse, meaning I have to keep going to the loo, which is making me more tired and aggrevating my pain - Aarrrggghhhh vicious circle
Family are being great and supportive but I have sat here and sobbed for the past hour - feel slightly better now that I have got it off my chest and I'll probably be all perky tomorrow, but today I just needed to moan - Thanks so much for listening.
Very gentle hugs (and stray tears) to you all xx
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katharine81627 erykah71
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Stay strong and stay confident when you see your doctor. It's so important that we don't allow others to sway how we are feeling and allow others to manipulate what we are trying to explain. It takes time and it takes patience to prove we are not just mKong up our symptoms.
Things will get better! X
debbie_1966 erykah71
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Boqer erykah71
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I hope your PIP assessment goes well, let us know.
Gentle hugs for you
Take care and be kind to yourself
Boqer
Bee70 erykah71
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I know it's tough, when I had pains over 20yrs ago I was working full time. My pains started back in 1993 and Ihad my first child in 1997. Although I was pain free during my pregnancy after birth the pains came back with avengence. I had to take a year out of work in 2001 as the pains were unbearable. Financially I couldn't afford to do that and was feeling more stressed worrying about mortgage and other bills. So I looked for part-time work and managed to get 20hrs per week. This job I started in 2002 and I am still working there. In 2004 I had my second child and kept the part time hrs and when he went to full-time school in 2008, I increased my hrs to 25hrs a week. Now Aug 2015 I will be increasing to 30 hrs a week. Although the pains are with me daily, I have good team at work who have been quite supportive and without this support I would be lost.
I understand how you feel as I have on many occassions wanted to give up, but also needed to job. Start off with reduced hrs then increase when you know you can. I know some employers do not support their employees but everyone has the right to the right working environment. The employer should make your workstation comfortable for you to do your daily tasks, so if they want you to work full hrs then they need to make adjustments for you.
Have you Occupational Health at work and they can assist you? Ask about Access to Work, they will assess your workstation and ask your employer to make necessary adjustments for you.
Gentle Hugs and stay positive and hope things work out for you. xx
Bee70
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So So Sorry Erykah, please forgive me. xx
erykah71 Bee70
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kaz_40 erykah71
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Bluebell21 erykah71
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It took me 30 years to get my formal diagnosis, so you're not doing too badly.
Sometimes it helps to just let it all out. We all understand how you feel. I used to have a v good GP but he moved on. Even though I have a formal diagnosis from a Rheumatologist and diagnoses from two other GP's, my current GP obviously doesn't believe how much pain I am in.
I have to go back to see her on Wednesday and I am already dreading it. So, no. You are not being unnecessarily anxious.
Unfortunately stress causes our pain levels to shoot up so it is just a vicious circle.
Sending you a gentle hug xx
lisa52101 erykah71
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Gentle hugs xx
erykah71
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I would just like to say a big thank you for all of your messages last night when I was having a bit of a wobble.
I went up to bed early (and did cry myself to sleep) but I had a really good nights sleep, which was badly needed and I feel much better about things today.
Your compassion, support and understanding was the perfect medicine, and even though I'm crying again (Big cry baby at the moment lol) it's for a whole different reason - I am so glad I found this forum as I am amazed how everyones situation relates to what I'm feeling in one way or another.
Thanks again everyone, I am very grateful for the support
Gentle hugs and lots of love to you all x
debbie_1966 erykah71
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Gentle hugs n take care xxx
Bluebell21 erykah71
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I'm so glad you got so much support. I only just joined the site at the weekend. I haven't posted yet, but answered a few posts.
It is so fantastic when we can all support each other.
Lots of love to you too xx
kaz_40 erykah71
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Bee70 erykah71
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lisa52101 erykah71
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Take care and gentle hugs xx