going from being really happy to lowest of the low - out of the blue. Help

Hi Sarah,

have you seen the thread/forum "Anyone NOT had any side effects on Citalopram?". I suggest that you take a look there and you will see that these are very common side effects of Cit. How long have you been taking Cit?

Yes, as Sarah says, this is very common whilst recovering.  Don't worry, even though your mood will be up and down for a while to come, it'll eventually get better and the low times will be a thing of the past.

Many of us have been there, and come through it.

K x

Thank you I will look. I've been on them a couple of months now. I was on venlafaxine but I had one of the very rare side effects so had to stop immediately. Prior to that I had sertraline and mirt but that did nothing. So I know I need to persevere with it . I just worry as when I get to the low mood thoughts of harming myself happen. . I wouldn't as I have my Lil one and I can fight the thought I just worry that one day it may not be so easy to fight it x

Hang in there Sarah. Any anti-depressant is not fool proof. It takes effort and awareness on your part to work with the process. I have down periods but I know it will get better and the confidence helps keep going. 

God bless and hang in there

Hi Sarah,

I also agree with what everyone else has said and never feel ashamed, embarrassed or that you shouldn't talk about this, because, that is one of the ways to help ourselves understand and as jcwray said "work with the process".

Keep your Dr up-to-date with everything that is going on, do not keep him out of the loop, if he does have the ffs attitude seek out one that knows about "sticking plasters for the brain!"

In the meantime keep posting and we'll keep supporting you!

Happy Saturdays!

David

Ps my youngest daughter is 12 and I have explained everyhting to her over the past year since I became ill, she kinda understands and is supportive, Bless her!

Hi sarah how long have you been on cit? I too am the same can be so happy and hyper loving life then the odd day or days where I am so anxious the thoughts creep in! So annoying lol but reassuring that there is others feel the same! Good luck missus!

Emz x

Hey sarah thats no good and rest assure I felt exactly the same was ringing my doc it got that bad and always hung up thinking "he must think I'm a nutcase" however we forget the docs spend so much time with ill people from all walks of life and extremes of illness so they are very emotionless which can for us be quite a put off.... I was like you one minute happy optimistic and thinking hey great I'm back to only wake and find I was agitated and fatiqued witha feeling of no hope! These feelings are really frustrating and emotional all I can say is wait out the meds and focus on when you reach your stage of recovery and how great you will feel! dont be too hard yourself around your boy if possible get some family help to take the pressure of yourself stay strong xx

I certainly don't know your situation, but I doubt that it is helpful for you to keep everything bottled up. There must be someone who is close enough to listen which is the primary assistance that you need. I'm sure that much of it is personal so I doubt that exposing it here is the best thing, but find SOMEONE who will listen. Best of luck Sarah and comment here anytime

Morning Sarah,

As part of my part in my own recovery (which was basically try get me to focus on getting through this with the goal of getting better, I changed several things. These things were all part of the lifestyle and work ethic which conspired to bring me to my knees and here in the first place!

My diet is a far more healthier one although, I used to cook with as much organic a poss, but now with non-soya based products providing the protein we need I nolonger eat meat of the land however, I do eat from the sea for other health reasons. Initially I stopped drinking (now have the odd bottle, or two, of ale a week and successfully given up smoking! Primarily, that which was instrumental in bringing me here, work related stress, I have removed myself from. I am still signed unfit for work, but this gives Ann and I time to reshape our future. The money I don't spend (waste) anymore means we have so much more, even with a big cut in income.

Unlike my last employer I hope yours realises that they have a statutory duty of care toward their employees and by "bottling it" may be putting them in a bad position and you not getting the support you have a right to!

It would be better for you (and everyone) if you can find someone close to explain what is going on. Awareness is the key to any illness like ours especially, when there are no physical signs that something is wrong.

I have never ever relied on drugs to make me better and steer clear of anything unless advised by my Dr. She knows a lot about #sticking plasters for the brain" and also not to overload on others to get one by, when a little self help may, just may, be possible.

One thing you must always remember, you have your forum family and we are here virtually 24/7!

We are all here for basically the same reasons however, with the various reasons comes lots of experience.

Keep posting Sarah.

Regards,

David