Going home will help my depression but i can't leave.
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I'm originally from the Isle of Man but I live in England because I met my boyfriend and we had a child. He's from England and he didn't want to live in the Isle of Man so we live here. I've been here for 2 years and i have made no real relationships despite my effort. I have fibro myalgia so i'm in alot of pain all the time, along with chronic fatigue, i work nights then get up with my son in the morning, i am tired all the time and it takes its toll really badly. i never stop my boyfriend from going out when the opportunity comes up because he works hard and deserves it, he didn't come out for my birthday because his friend had a christmas party that night, i couldn't go to my best friends birthday that was in a city i went to uni in because he had a works due even though i had planned it months ago and he found out about his night out three days before hand, i couldn't go out for his mums hen party because his brother forgot to get a babysitter for his stepdads bachelor party. i rarely go out because i dont have any friends to go out with and when the opportunity arrises i usually cant go. i tell him its ok if he stays out late just to let me know thats what hes doing. For the first time ever, in three years we've been together i wanted him home early because i had a panic attack, i rang him to see if he knew when he was coming home because if it was soonish i wasn't going to ask him to come home i could have waited and he started shouting at me saying he deserves a night out because he works hard all week, and started accusing me of checking up on him and that he wasn't going to cheat. i have never accused him of cheating, or even thought that he might have. this is what i come back to. i go to the isle of man and though i may still have the odd panic attack and still tired i'm happy and i have loads of friends and im always busy so i stay out of my head but as soon as i return to england i'm lonely again, and im stuck in the house or at work with no social life. i don't know what to do because he is a good man and a good father but he has not long gotten his dream job here and doesn't want to move but i'm so depressed. i've seen three different councillors and been on anti-depressents since not long after my son was born and i dont know what to do. someone please help me.
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Davesoapbox becx91
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You have my deepest compassion for your situation and as others have said your relationship seems at the root of your problem. A solution that occurs to me is to go see your GP and tell him your not coping, then ask your parents if you can come home for a while to recouperate. Tell your partner that You need help and that you appreciate he has work and you don't want to burden him. This way you can get away and be with those close to you who can help you sort things out. You sound like a lovely lady and I know us men can be selfish and forget our partners have lives as well. Stay strong, head up and remember at the end of the day it is your life and you are entitled to live everyday happy
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hypercat becx91
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You work just as hard as him so you deserve to go out as well surely? Tell him to shape up or ship out! x
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