Had a recurrence of my anxiety and depression after getting too high
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Heres the story. I got far too high in November 2014 which caused me to have a major panic attack. This led to the onset of a major depressive episode along with pretty debilitating anxiety. This anxiety was at its worst at night with feelings of depersonilzation and derealization. After a few months of trying to hold on until I saw a psychiatrist, I slowly started to get better. I find a combination of medications that led me to be in a constant state, it wasn't perfect but it was definitely livable with my night troubles persisting at a much more tolerable level.
My situation all changed a few weeks when on a trip with my friends I got far too high again. I realized what was happening and tried to calm myself down so as to not have any panic attacks. I did a much better job of not letting the anxiety overwhelm me this time. I thought I was through the woods until I woke up the next morning and started feeling off. I just felt like the world was flat and not real during the day. Then when night hit was when the real trouble started. My depersonalization reached a new level not seen since before I went on medication. I didn't feel like myself, would wake up feeling disoriented, just would get stuck in my head (which is not a good place to be at the moment) for far too long. I was hoping that my medication would help level me out again after not too long but it hasn't thus far. I just feel like I'm never going to get better and I'm losing hope. I just want any advice people have about what to do
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jay67544 youngdeej
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Secondly - get some professional help - from what you say your issues may be a mix of things including depression? What kicks of the attacks do you know?
youngdeej jay67544
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Yeah there is definitely depression at play here too. The attacks usually happen at night, other than the initial attacks being caused by getting too high I can't pinpoint what kicks off the attacks.
lynne82155 youngdeej
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Rec drugs are a stimulant along with alcohol smoking coffee and junk food.
Go back and speak to your doctor make sure your getting the correct support
consider therapy it teaches you how to cope with anxiety.
You have to want to help yourself there is no point moaning about it on forums like this then going off and doing drugs
I wish you luck
Stay Strong
youngdeej lynne82155
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lynne82155 youngdeej
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I thoughr I was seriously ill or dying I would not believe that it was anxiety
It was'nt until I came onto forums like this that I knew I wasnt alone.
My love in life was a cigarette and a nice coffee, I cant have that now because it sends my anxiety through the roof and I will do anything to stop a horrofic anxiety attack
If you want your anxiety to improve your gonna have to give up drugs mate I know its hard when your mates are doing but if you dont try and sort it now it will turn into bigger things and ruin your life
youngdeej lynne82155
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jmcg2014 youngdeej
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