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Heres the story. I got far too high in November 2014 which caused me to have a major panic attack. This led to the onset of a major depressive episode along with pretty debilitating anxiety. This anxiety was at its worst at night with feelings of depersonilzation and derealization. After a few months of trying to hold on until I saw a psychiatrist, I slowly started to get better. I find a combination of medications that led me to be in a constant state, it wasn't perfect but it was definitely livable with my night troubles persisting at a much more tolerable level.
My situation all changed a few weeks when on a trip with my friends I got far too high again. I realized what was happening and tried to calm myself down so as to not have any panic attacks. I did a much better job of not letting the anxiety overwhelm me this time. I thought I was through the woods until I woke up the next morning and started feeling off. I just felt like the world was flat and not real during the day. Then when night hit was when the real trouble started. My depersonalization reached a new level not seen since before I went on medication. I didn't feel like myself, would wake up feeling disoriented, just would get stuck in my head (which is not a good place to be at the moment) for far too long. I was hoping that my medication would help level me out again after not too long but it hasn't thus far. I just feel like I'm never going to get better and I'm losing hope. I just want any advice people have about what to do
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