Has anybody felt suicidal ?

Hi lori93950

We note from a recent post which you have made to our forum that you may be experiencing thoughts around self-harm. If we have misinterpreted your comments then we apologise for contacting you directly. But if you are having such thoughts then please note that you are not alone in this, and there are people out there that can help.

If you are having these suicidal thoughts then we strongly recommend you speak to someone who may be able to help. The Samaritans offer a safe space where you can talk openly about what you are going through. They can help you explore your options, understand your problems better, or just be there to listen.

Their contact details are on our patient information leaflet here: https://patient.info/health/dealing-with-suicidal-thoughts, which also offers lots of other advice on how you can access the help you may need.

If you are having such thoughts then please do reach out to the team at the Samaritans (or the other people detailed in our leaflet) who will understand what you're going through and will be able to help.

Kindest regards

Patient

Wow they called you out on that fast didnt they? Everyone is so sensitive about the mention of suicide these days. I understand where you are coming from. Im pretty sure that it crosses all of our minds in some way. In mine I have felt so bad I just wish I could sleep for the rest of my life or until this process is over. I have been going through this for several years and it gets horrible and then it gets better. But then it will get horrible again. I have no support at all so I had to figure out a way to get through it by myself. Please find a passion of yours...crafts, gardening..something that will give you some focus. I know you feel bad and feel sick most of the time if your like me but I promise there is still life to live. There will be some bright days and hopefully soon you will foresee the bad ones coming and will know how to deal with it. Message me anytime if you need someone to talk to. 

Lori, please seek medical attention. Something more sinister maybe going on while transitioning into this new phase. While the feeling of doom & gloom is normal, suicide is one that is taken seriously such that medication is administered, either with hrt or some other pill. Please seek medical attention immediately.

I have NOT experienced that. Low feeling, but never have I been in those depths. I'm glad the moderator has chimed in. You should see someone about it. Know that it will pass as it is probably hormone or medication related, so don't let it overwhelm you, BUT it needs to be helped by a professional. It will be OK and they have the proper resources for you. Thinking of you 💖

Hi Lori,

Yes, I can absolutely relate. The hormone changes of perimenopause have affected me dramatically, and it is so difficult to get a handle on your emotions. 

Through this process, I have definitely had those thoughts, as it is so difficult to live with deep depression, anxiety, and fear. What I always see, though, is that no matter how dark I may feel in a given moment, those feelings always shift. Sometimes the mood change is quick (even minutes or seconds), but at other times it takes longer. When I have a thought about taking my life, when the symptoms become difficult to bear, I am so glad that I didn't because I always end up feeling well again.

I am under the care of a psychiatrist who is supporting me through this process, so I know how terribly difficult it can be. The important thing to remember is that it is a phase of life, and it will change.

Deep breathing and saying "in" and "out" help to center you. I also use mantras, such as: "This feeling is temporary" or "You are strong enough to handle anything that comes your way".

When I feel filled with despair, I go back and remember the last time that I felt happy, and I relive that experience in the most detailed way that I can. Last weekend, for example, I went on a cycling trip with my boyfriend, and we stayed in a tiny house on an organic farm. Although I had been feeling very despondent, when I arrived at the farm with all of the animals, a profound sense of peace came over me, and I was so happy and satisfied. I basked in that time, and I recognized that this happy person is who I am, and this part of me is always right under the surface waiting to show herself to the world. 

Reaching out to the women on this forum is immense support, so keep doing that. Know that other women out there are going through similar feelings to you. It helps so much to know that you are not alone!

You will get through this Lori, and you will be so glad that you did, when you make it to the other side where calm waters await you.

Sending you much love and understanding.

B xo

Hi Lori...

During my peri journey, I have been so very...so extremely...low in my feelings that it scared me. I sought help because I was scared of feeling so low. Just the word Suicide has always scared me. I didn't want to get to the point where it ever entered my thoughts. With much talk therapy with my doctors (gp and gyne)my family, friends, and God...I came to realize that my thoughts were coming from fear of change, of what is a natural chapter in our lives. I was thinking about it in my go-to negative way...all or nothing. Please don't choose a permanent solution to a temporary issue.

Things will get better. I love "chatting" with the women on this forum because they make me feel less alone in my fears and I get real help with solutions to getting through this new , but kind of exciting, phase in life. Empathy is everything, we KNOW what these symptoms feel like.

Keep reaching out to us. Take the admin's advice. See it from a different perspective. And know we care, hugs hugs hugs!!!😘

I had the same feelings a while ago and I knew for sure it wasn't me this roller coaster of hormones can make you think all sorts of crazy things so I didn't pay attention to them and they eventually leave all I can say you'll be fine your mind can play tricks on you