Health Aniexty - feeling low

Thank you Nicola it really is awful! You sound so like me if it's not cancer, tumors, strokes, heart attack, it's just something every week.my panic too is my wee kids what will happen to them if something happens me.Im getting worse too, i worry about being left alone with my kids incase I take ill and nobody finds me to help look after them, it's mental writing this but it's my life! I used to be so outgoing and fun now I can't be bothered and in a panic all the time.my doctor prescribed tablets but I didn't take them as the leaflet said things about sucidal thoughts and I was scared to take them. I did try CBT therapy before and did slightly work but wouldn't mind trying again. I found a lump in my breast the other week and found out I will have to wait 6 weeks for an appointment, that's mad! When your a mum it's so much worse as you fear the worse don't you. So tonight after nearly having a panic attack as I has stomach pains I decided to look for a forum to join and hear I am! Better than looking up my illness on the internet! Lovely speaking to you and think we might be in touch supporting each other quite a bit xxx 

OMG u sound exactly like me hun, we are in the same boat, thats another reason i didnt take my tablets as i did the same as u and read the leaflet and thought the last thing i need is suicidal thoughts as i allready feel so low!! U have done the best thing coming on here thats why i did this morning, panic attacks are awful i have had so many that have affected me in different ways, ive had stiffness allover my body, dizzyness and head feeling tight, shaking, my hands last week went into spazm like cramp and couldnt control them and it scared the hell out of me. Its also affecting my eating now as i cant eat i feel that sick. Please please dont feel alone xxx

We are a pair lol! When I take panic attacks my heart races, I start to get shivery and start to be sick! We went to a wedding a few weeks ago and it was quite a bit away involving an overnight. I was giggling if there were hospitals close by incase I took ill! All day I was a nervous wreck and when we got there I was so by myself incase I took ill I started to panic - being sick, shaking. But as usual I had no choice but to put a brave face on and be social. I didn't eat the whole day incase I was sick, but then I started to enjoy myself and the day passed. But that's just an example of how bad it gets. Like you I have lower abdominal pains and am obsessed it cervical cancer or ovarian. But I've just had a smear, ultrasounds the works and all clear ! So that has settled me that way. This week I took the cold/flu and it's been bad I thought I had meningitis, tonight when I are my tea I felt so sick - I was ready for doctor on call (I've already called them twice this weekend for antibiotics). Last year one day I had a sore head and had myself convinced I had a brain tumour, the next thing I had a cramp all done my right side arm, foot, face even my tongue (just kle your last week) I went mad thought I was having a stroke, because of the symptons the doctor seen me ASAP and it wasn't just a migraine but since en I'm obsessed incase a headache is a stroke.

It all sounds mental but what can we do, as they say it's all in the mind xx 

Ive just read ur stuff to my partner and he laughed (not in a horrible way) he said omg she is like a clone of u (me) lol😀 its madness isnt it, get this.... i went to asda last tuesday to do the weekly shop and felt i didnt want to go in the first place but forced myself... this resulted in me only just getting to the second isle and bursting in to tears and begging gaz for the car keys so i could go 😁 i ran through asda crying and having a panic attack it was really busy too 😠 i felt a right idiot after but for some strange reason i couldnt deal with being in bloody asda lol, ive got the dull ache in the bottom of my bk that is a sign too which is scaring me, and bits of pains in my legs, not sure whats what anymore, i just hope everything will be ok wen i go docs, really think u should go bk to CBT though and stick it out this time xxx

I just read my typing awful! Time I got auto type on this iPad lol!

yes I did that in Asda one day too - a headache and I thought I was for collapsing! 

Sometimes you know the pains, pins & needles are signs of aniexty in our bodies. I try to tell myself this. I always get a sore left arm and am convinced it's a heart attack ! But on a serious note several years ago my lung collapsed and I was very ill hospitalised for a week so I think this also hasn't helped with this problem. As this was a big shock.

the CBT I did was online apparently the waiting lists for one to one are so long! I think you will be okay but just go get checked out to be sure and set your mind at ease too. 

Hi! Oh yes my eldest knows who to ring, when to ring etc! Bless them they don't really understand and I don't think I would want them too. It really is awful but I do try to get out - I work part-time so that helps  if I sat in everyday I would be mental and prob seriously depressed with my health issues. I also  try at least once a week to go out shopping. I love clothes but never find anything that suits me and always think I font look well, but again that's prob in my head. I've up just lost all my confidence I used to be do bubbly, confident, loved life, didn't care what anyone thought and lived it to the full - my goal is to get back to this someday xx 

I honestly think having children brings a lot of it on as we are responsible for them and the thought of anything happening to us and us not being there for them... well it scares the s*** out of us!! Everybody has anxiety but its just most people can control it and some of us struggle to control it and end up blubbering wrecks with awful thoughts, at least we all feel the same on here xx

Hi! Oh yes my eldest knows who to ring, when to ring etc! Bless them they don't really understand and I don't think I would want them too. It really is awful but I do try to get out - I work part-time so that helps  if I sat in everyday I would be mental and prob seriously depressed with my health issues. I also  try at least once a week to go out shopping. I love clothes but never find anything that suits me and always think I font look well, but again that's prob in my head. I've up just lost all my confidence I used to be do bubbly, confident, loved life, didn't care what anyone thought and lived it to the full - my goal is to get back to this someday xx 

I honestly think having children brings a lot of it on as we are responsible for them and the thought of anything happening to us and us not being there for them... well it scares the s*** out of us!! Everybody has anxiety but its just most people can control it and some of us struggle to control it and end up blubbering wrecks with awful thoughts, at least we all feel the same on here xx

Children are a worry, I always look at them and think of what I would miss out on if anything happened. My little girl started nursery this year on th open day a girl with her little boy was there - it was very obvious the girl wasn't well seriously ill, but she was trying. The next week she died of cancer , I heard this being told to other parents and it really shook me up,she wasn't much older than me and every time I see the wee boy I could cry.when they do something at nursery I just think that poor lady didn't get to see this. It really plays in my mind. Makes you relapse how important enjoying every second matters xx 

Its an awful feeling isnt it as no matter how hard u try u cant seem to shake off that feeling or thoughts😕 i just pray that we all get sorted and get bk to normal, we are just living in fear day in day out its not a nice feeling 😔 xx

Yes work can be hard. No-one in my work knows they think I'm the bubbly, happy receptionist! But secretly behind my screen I'm sitting looking up on the internet what's supposed to be wrong with me!

think I need an internet ban! But nowadays everywhere you look it's about health, illness etc!

Yeh same here with most and the people that do know can't believe it because I'm so laid back and outgoing but as you say we hide it very well!! I don't google much now tbh cause you diagnose yourself with all sorts, at the mo I'm trying to get my weight down as I have high blood pressure and borderline diabetes which is a worry in itself but hey ho gotta get on with it!! 

Yes you do - put the make up on and the smile! 

Yes that is a worry too but all your worry and aniexty can't help the blood pressure too.

Im now on an internet health ban! See how it goes, small steps first xx