Health anxiety and depression causing illness?
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Hi, I'm 36 and have had health anxiety (mainly around cancer) for as long as I can remember after seeing various family members die of it and helping my friend through one of her friends dying of it at 32. I'm literally convinced I'm going to be diagnosed with it and leave behind my partner and 8 mth old daughter.
So very recently things have turned for the worse for me mentally. I went to GP as had painful swallowing and throat hurt to touch down by thyroid for couple of weeks. Everything from thyroid cancer to hodgkins lymphoma went through my mind. GP said she thought it was viral as some lymph nodes were also swollen. I have since been back 4 times in the last 2 weeks and they keep saying I don't have cancer however they have run no tests on me so how can they know? I am also experiencing extreme tiredness and lethargy and have lost nearly a stone from loss of appetite. I'm now under 9 stone which I've never been. All of this points to Cancer to me and I started having thoughts about ending my life this week because I just can't carry on feeling so ill and worrying about it all the time. I feel like doctors now dismiss my concerns because they know about my anxiety. I'm paying for a 2nd opinion at a private hospital tomorrow because my life is just so miserable at the moment. I try really hard to be ok around my daughter but I just end up crying all the time. Can anyone tell me if this is all anxiety or if I really should be worried? Thank you for listening.
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MV1980 Tinkerbell32
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Hi Tinkerbell32! I too suffer from anxiety and when I first realized I had it was about a year ago. If my children were sick, it would bring about panic attacks and my thoughts were I was going to lose them. I would get sore throats weekly and lose my voice. I also had a dry cough daily with shortness of breath. I too started to think I had cancer or some type of thyroid disease. When I talked to my Dr about it, she said it sounded like acid reflex. She prescribed some medication for me, but because I already take meds for anxiety, I didn't want to take more medication. I decided to change my diet. I quit drinking coffee, eating foods high in acid, and lowered my sugar intake. All of these would trigger my acid reflux. I still get it time to time, but not nearly as bad as I had it before. I think having anxiety makes it difficult to look past the simple things. Please fight it through for your daughter's sake. She needs her momma! I will be praying for you!
Tinkerbell32 MV1980
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Hi, thank you for responding. I too used to suffer with severe acid reflux and was on omeprazole for months. I also had gastritis. Obviously I thought I had oesphagal cancer and stomach cancer at the time. I'm just so sick of this anxiety now. My sister said what will be will be and if it is worst case scenario they will deal with it but she's so philosophical and I don't see it that way. I wish I could be strong but I'm not.
JS007 Tinkerbell32
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Hi - I am in the same position as you and I struggle to find people to talk to about it as they often have philosophical minds aswell or have never experienced the C word. I lost my dad to cancer and my mum had breast cancer a year later - the full works operation, chemo and radiotherapy! I am 36 this month and since my dad died convinced I am going to get the disease and it can’t be cured. I have acid reflux at present, I had one medicine for 4 weeks which has done nothing and now on something else. I’m panicking as had blood test done today and think if meds not working do I have something serious?? I need tips on how to handle health anxiety, I only get it when I have symptons that don’t go away?? I totally understand where you are coming from as I am a Mum to and I want to see my little man grow up. Please any tips welcomed 😊
Tinkerbell32 JS007
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Hi, sorry to hear your feeling like this too and that youve experienced that horrible C word. I know when I was having my reflux issues I was in the doctors constantly. However it took trying 3 different types of reflux tablets to get it under control. Stress was a major factor in getting reflux too. I had endoscopies and a colonoscopy because I too was convinced I had cancer. Unfortunately I'm exactly the same as you when it comes to symptoms that don't go away, my mind goes into overdrive so I can't give any advice how to handle it because I need that advice too. I have spoken to anxiety helplines before when ive been really low which helps mentally because they understand. My partner looks at it like why worry about something you can't change. He says what will be will be which I know is true but it doesn't help the anxiety.
I think perhaps counselling would be good for you too especially as your health anxiety has been caused by seeing family members with C, like me. I know mine has got worse since having my daughter and I was told that's exactly what happens if you have anxiety already. Admitting you are struggling is the first step to getting better and I had to admit I had a problem only very recently in order to start some help, no matter what the outcome of my test results. x
JS007 Tinkerbell32
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sue162 JS007
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i had reflux and had a camera to reassure me. I think it was vitamin d pills that were causing it as nothing was found on camera. Just wondering if anything you are eating is causing it, also stress causes reflux. Tomatoes or sauces and acidic fruit maybe just check things you’re eating for a cause of it x
Tinkerbell32 JS007
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Yes the hardest bit is still having to be ok for your child because they still need feeding, changing, entertaining etc. I also just want to stay in bed or collapse on the sofa and not move but my 8 mth old doesn't allow it! I'm glad your seeing a counsellor because you sound exactly like me. Once you start hearing other people with the same worries, you start to realise it's more widespread. I just think most people don't talk about it because they think people will think they're mad. I know I thought that! We aren't alone in this x
JS007 sue162
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I’m glad you had a camera to have a look - that is my worst fear. I get so anxious and think they are looking for sinister things?!! I have had it now for 6 weeks, every day - I tried lansaprazole for 4 weeks that did nothing so now I’m on rantidine 300mg. I cut out all the bad foods etc but made no difference to the reflux! nothing appears to trigger it off. I have it from when I wake up til when I sleep?!! Sore throat and burping after eating or drinking anything! Driving me mad!!!
sue162 JS007
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yeah had the burping, gurgling, popping noises and feeling sick and pressure when a burp came up then no sickness feeling when I’d burped, the nausea puts you off food too doesn’t it. I got headaches on the PPI so went on ranatadine, then it just went away. They did the camera for reassurance and because of my age. It may take some time for things to calm down after your meds. Health anxiety is no fun x
sue162 Tinkerbell32
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Tinkerbell32 sue162
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Hi Sue, thank you for responding. I had post natal depression after I had my daughter which I managed to come through (or I thought I had). My health anxiety seems to be fueling it again though and life is just horrible at the moment feeling like this. The worst thing is the weight loss and appetite loss. The loss of appetite came on pretty suddenly and it was after I'd googled symptoms! However it still hasn't returned over a week later. I've been referred for counselling now for anxiety. Also had blood tests today and got an mri scan on Tues on thyroid. I'm scared but just glad someone is taking me seriously.
sue162 Tinkerbell32
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Tinkerbell32 sue162
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Thank you, i will let you know. I found out yesterday that my mum and aunt are on thyroid medication so it may be hereditary? Either way I just need to know what this is now for my daughter's sake because her mummy cant enjoy her at the moment I will try and take 1 day at a time for now until I get results back however hard that may be. It's my birthday on Sat so I need to try and enjoy that at least x
Tinkerbell32 sue162
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Thank you, i will let you know. I found out yesterday that my mum and aunt are on thyroid medication so it may be hereditary? Either way I just need to know what this is now for my daughter's sake because her mummy cant enjoy her at the moment I will try and take 1 day at a time for now until I get results back however hard that may be. It's my birthday on Sat so I need to try and enjoy that at least x
sue162 Tinkerbell32
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yeah do something good on Saturday with your daughter. If it comes back thyroid and you need meds it’s easy to say but there is an explanation for your health and it will be sorted then. That also can explain anxiety if it’s not the reading it should be, plus people are listening to you now which is half the battle. X